Ok, my life would have been much better (this morning) not finding this link ... and reading as far as I could take it If I read the term "autogynephilic transsexuals" one more time I'm going into dry heaves.
Wasting time, *huggs*,
Melan
Post Merge: February 13, 2009, 07:56:03 AM
Yikes sorry for the double posting, but I've continued reading more on the subject after getting up. The bad taste left in my mouth from reading the site listed in this thread, led me to reading more about "Autogynephilic Transsexualism" this morning. I was surprised to see recent publications from Anne Lawrence actually touting the theory. A more well-rounded theory, but still pushing the theory forward.
This is her conclusion, in her article, "
Becoming What We Love: Autogynephilic Transsexualism Conceptualized as an Expression of Romantic Love":
QuoteThe concept of ->-bleeped-<- is essential to understanding the increasing
prevalence of atypical MtF transsexualism in Western countries. Autogynephilic
transsexualism is a manifestation of paraphilic sexuality, but thinking about
->-bleeped-<- as a purely erotic phenomenon is not the most helpful approach for
clinicians who want to achieve a sophisticated understanding of their
nonhomosexual MtF transsexual patients. Thinking about nonhomosexual or
autogynephilic MtF transsexuals as men who "love women and want to become
what they love" offers a more accurate and more richly informative model for
clinicians.
Reading this article does not make me feel good, not in the least. She makes a statement:
QuoteSome MtF transsexuals object vehemently to Blanchard's ->-bleeped-<--based
typology and theory of transsexual motivation. Not surprisingly, most of these
objectors are persons who fit the demographic pattern of autogynephilic
transsexualism.
That hits pretty hard, when it is very true for me, I honestly do fit the
demographic pattern described by this theory, however I will vehemently deny any insinuation that my transsexuality is some form of "romantic love for women". She then gears the rest of her article to describing how the theory applies to people like me. I feel betrayed reading this article by a prominent trans woman, who resides in the world's eye, especially within the academic community. And I had always wondered how institutions that treat transgendered patients, like the Clark (the nefarious CamH in Toronto) could use these theories, hell, they're embraced by people like Anne Lawrence. I have a friend that went there recently, and she was actually diagnosed with "Autogynephilic Transsexualism". She was perturbed with the diagnosis, but didn't fight it, she wanted her HRT. The same institute,
I have heard, actually used shock (aversion) therapy in the past to discourage behavior that followed patterns described by the theory of Autogynephilic Transsexualism.
Do I feel less a woman if one picks my life apart, and defines exact causal relationships of why I feel like I feel, of who I am? I'm not sure, but I do feel queasy at the thought of this. For some reason, it makes me feel stupid, like this is some curable malady, that hitting a 10-step program, a therapist, and a few anti-anxiety medications could fix up. This theory invalidates my existence as a trans gendered person. Yuck, back to my regularly unscheduled life, I can't dwell on this anymore.
*huggs*,
Melan