Hi everyone its nice to meet you, i am 31 years old and i believe i am a male to female transexual. I have felt this way most of my life but i have always tried to hide it by being a very macho male. I have just left a long term relationship which ended very bad. My ex partner cheated on me and left me at christmas for another man. I have a daughter, who i see 3 times a week. I have struggled all my life with my desire to be a woman and have never had anyone to talk to about this. I once told a female friend who i believed was a very good friend but she did not understand and distanced herself from me which really hurt and still does, that was 4 year ago. I now have such a strong desire to become who i feel i should be and thats cheryl. However i am so worried and scared and really dont know what to do or where i belong. I found out about this forum off another forum which is for natuarl breast enhancement as i have a huge desire to grow female breasts. I feel obsessed with this and have done since i was 14. I am sorry to write so much but i am lost and would love to make some new friends who maybe understand me and can help me. Thanks to you all Cheryl x

Hi dear, you'll find a lot of people here who feel as you do.

Hello Cheryl

a very warm welcome to you

Hi Cheryl & welcome:

Aw, stay away from those "natural breast enhancement" vitamins.
Besides being largely ineffective and expensive they contain other natural stuff that your body doesn't need.

It is boring, but the best path lies through getting a therapist and eventually a proper HRT regimen from an endocrinologist.

Hi Cheryl,   

Welcome to our little family. Over 1660 strong. That would be one heck of a family reunion. Feel free to post your successes/failures, Hopes/dreams.  Ask questions and seek answers.  Give and receive advice.

But remember we are family here, your family now.  And it is always nice to have another sister.   

Janet

Due to my own confussion, maybe I should not speak.
But here it goes-
I have been reading a lot sites that deal with this problem that contend that the world needs to understand that there are those that are more then just a man of just a woman. They are both, some because of birth defects, while others because of enviroment.
I believe that for some of us, to seek to kill the male in us is just as wrong as denying the woman in us.
This has been the conclusion that I have reached.
The choice will always be yours, and I hope that you can recieve the help you want and need.

Hi Cheryl, this is the right place to get rid of said confusion, so welcome, but yeah, those natural vitamins are something like 1,000 times less effective than bio-identical estrogen, so they are practically useless. Rather get yourself to a therapist, work out if you want to transition, and get on proper HRT if that's what you figure out you really want.

Mina.

Welcome to susans Cheryl

Hi Cheryl,

It's nice to meet you, and I'm so sorry about your recent break-up

Trauma of any sort does tend to bring our GID issues to the surface, and its easy to make rash decisions while we are still suffering from the shock which can take months to subside.

Please consider getting yourself some therapy as soon as possible, but approach it from the point of view of sorting out your life rather than specifically GID.

It's good that you have found your way here, but it really sounds like you need some 'one on one' help to get things in perspective before starting down any path.

You take care now Hon..



Chrissty

Welcome Cheryl,

Like others have said, find a good gender therapist to help you sort out your feelings and next steps.  Don't try to rush it, take your time to learn and understand your options and what is right for you.  There are many here who have experience that can answer questions and offer guidance.  In the end it is your life, your future, and your decision to make.

This is not an easy path, you will need strength and determination, but it is freeing and fulfilling.

Good luck on your journey.

Hugs, Maya

You are all so lovely, and thank you very much for welcoming me as you all have. I have started doing alot of reading on this site and i seem to have so much to learn about myself. At the minute i feel so desperate to start being cheryl and it is making me very upset. I have made my first appointment to see my doctor to discuss my gender issue and i am very nervous. But as i live in the UK i know it will take along time before i even get a appointment to see a specialist maybe 6 months or more. I feel i want to start now and i am afraid i will start self medicating which i know is very dangerous, but the urges i get are becoming uncontrolable and my desire to have breasts is so strong i dont know what to do. I have never spoke with anyone about this and i can not believe i am telling you all this. This forum has made me feel i belong to something and i am very greatful. I hope i can speak to you all soon, Thankyou x

Honey, that's what we're here for. Even if nothing more than a place for you to gain a bit of confidence talking about your feelings.

You do belong. *hugs*

I know the feelings you must have with regard to wanting everything yesterday, but you've put the wheels in motion and, however long it takes, that you have a firm idea of where you want to be is a very good thing.

Welcome to the site. It's great to have you here.

Welcome!  You've come to a good place here at Susan's.  There are many knowledgeable and helpful people here who will be glad to help you.  Like you, I'm new here myself and have much to learn.

Got a question, just ask the very experienced people here who are the ones with several stars under their names.  The Global Moderators are REALLY in the know.  Also, many people here are also from the UK.   You've found a home here.

Hugs!

Hello Cheryl and welcome to Susan's! 

Thanks so much for introducing yourself.  Please take a few moments to get familiar with all the boards of the site, review the site rules before posting, and take advantage of our many resources such as the wiki, chat, and the links listed at the main page.  We look forward to your future posts and participation.  Enjoy your stay! 

tink

Hi Cheryl, welcome to Susan's. That you are making an effort to see your Doctor is very important. I wont comment further as I dont know much about the U.K.'s procedures. I do know that we have a lot of members from there that can help you further. So glad you have found us and can now in turn find yourself. The angst at the beginning is usually the worst but it will get better for you. Hugs

Wendy