Easter Sunday I came out to the congregation of my church. There is a place during the service when we can light a candle and say what is going on in our life that is important - new job, death in the family, son-in-law in rehab, etc. I decided to do it last Sunday. I was reluctant to do it on Easter because a lot of strangers show up then, but our minister is only half-time and is going to be away for two months because of surgery. Plus the symbolism of rebirth appealed. And I didn't want to wait any longer.
I practiced my little routine a gazillion times. I didn't want to just wing it, because I knew I'd muff it. I told the minister and some friends ahead of time that I was going to try to make the announcement if I didn't lose my nerve. They were all supportive. I even asked one of my friends who always sits in the back to signal me if I wasn't speaking loudly enough.
I went up and said my routine. It really paid to practice it so much. Once I started I was on automatic pilot. I could see my friend in the back with a big grin, so I knew he could hear me. When I was done I sat down next to a friend who knew all about it and she held my hand and squeezed. The woman on the other side of me, who I hadn't told about being TG, grabbed my other hand and squeezed. I just about burst into tears.
After the service, I got more hugs than I ever have. The friends who knew ahead of time congratulated me. One woman to whom this was all news asked me to be her girlfriend, another asked if I was going to change my name. One woman I have been friendly with, a physician, said she had worked with someone who had transitioned at my age and it had gone very well and her patient "just blossomed wonderfully." All in all, it went far better than I had dreamed.
Now I can go to church as Katherine if I want. As many of you know already, the freedom and relief is amazing.
Here's my announcement:
I wanted to light a candle today
in joy for this fellowship and for all of you,
who have provided a sanctuary here,
where I finally feel safe enough
to pursue a lifelong dream.
In this season of rebirth
I have begun to be reborn
as a woman,
which is what I've always wanted to be.
I don't know how successful I'll be,
but already, early in my journey,
I have received more understanding and encouragement here,
than I ever thought possible.
It gives me great hope.
And I thank you for that.
It is a huge relief to get this step over with. Now on to the next...
- Kate
