But I can not      .

Alice has been very dormant for the last few month while I have been vert tired. I am still waiting for the results of my sleep test (anotyher 2 week wait) and I feel like my life is on hold till then. I can not enjoy anything in life at the moment because I am to tired and I am to affraid to work on my bike because of the result it has given me in the part. I just want this tiredness to end so I can go back to living instead of the living dead I find myself now.

Of course when I do go back to living and starting to enjoy myself I expect Alice to come back just as strong as ever. At least I will be happy and can enjoy my time has her unlike the present moment when I am just trying to suvive. So while I want to leave here I know now is not the time because sonner or later Alice will want to play. In the mean time I just wish I did not have to worry about her.

Plus there is one sister I have here (you know who you are) who I do not want to leave. She has been a great friend to me in the good times and the hard times. I never want to leave this place without her.

Alice

   

Oh wow, Alice!

Get your proper rest and see how you feel.  While you are so very down is not the time to make any major decisions.  So just hang in there, sister!  Please!

You know we love you and are here for you.



Kristi

Depression can make you feel that way, could that be a factor?

I've always found it interesting that you refer to Alice as this seperate entity that shares your body. Are you not Alice and Alice is also you?

Alice Hon,

Maybe you can't leave because you are still seeking answers.  But even if you do leave, your friends will still be in your life, even if it isn't here.

There are many ways to stay in touch.  And I hope the sleep test comes out alright.

Janet

Quote from: Nicky on April 21, 2009, 09:56:34 PM
Depression can make you feel that way, could that be a factor?

I've always found it interesting that you refer to Alice as this seperate entity that shares your body. Are you not Alice and Alice is also you?

Well if you want to put it in those terms Al is the best name for me, Neighter Male or Female, just myself. In many cases I do not feel different when I put on my Alice clothes and indeed at the party last weekend there was a stage when I wanted to take of my wig and be one of the boys. I wish clothes was not so important in our society so I could just go out as how I feel. I would most probably wear a skirt and some kind of top without my wig no makeup.

Alice

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Post Merge: April 22, 2009, 12:59:04 AM

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I do not know how to feel.

The sleep people just rang me up and they where concerned as it turns our I have a sever case of sleep Apnea. I knew something was wrong - I just hope now things will get better.

Alice

Glad to have a little bit of an answer, honey!