I've heard this a little bit in my time, that androgynes, well a certain segment of androgynes, are transsexuals in denial.
Definitely there are transsexuals that find androgyny a comfortable half-way house, a stopover in their journey, and I'm not referring to them or those that just want to appear androgynous.
Then there are those like myself that feel their internal gender is neither male nor female. I've noticed that many of these same people actually say that they would be happier with the body of the opposite sex. I myself would rather have a female body. I am pretty ambivalent about having a penis though, seems to do the job for me. But I can't help but think that if I sorted out my body then my dysphoria would focus on that part of my body. It would suddenly become incongruent. I've heard other transsexuals talking about this same experience.
This morning I was thinking about something me and my counsellor discussed that likely I have not fully discovered who I am. This comes from never before having the freedom to express myself as I like or having people to reflect off. As a result of this, because I'm not solid in my core self, I am really sensitive to external stuff like comments made by other people which seems to be one trigger for my depression.
Anyway I was thinking that if I was a woman the image of the woman I wanted to be is actually at odds with society i.e. a gender queer woman. A big chunk of not feeling like a woman for me is that I reject the rules for being a woman in our society, I will not be bound by them, I don't want to act like them. I want freedom from the gender shackles. The problem is this clashes with my internal image of what a woman is. Perhaps I am a woman, just not the type of woman that fits my image of what a woman is. Anyway, just typing out loud, I'm hoping writing it down will help me clarify my thoughts.
I feel like I am making headway, maybe I am on to something. Perhaps this is just one of those teenage like phases of self exploration. The thought that perhaps I am actually a woman terrifies me for some reason, I think it makes things harder because then I will feel like I have a standard to live up to.