Hello girls,
In principle, the signs might be similar very much.
At the age of about 8 years I noted that something is not right in the matter of "boys". The wish female clothes arose to carry and cannot be restrained any more. Though there existed only very low possibilities to do this - however, every minute was used proverbially for it.
As long as I lived in the parental home, I imagined anyhow this will return itself. The disposition had to have struck at all like; however, it was demanded in no manner.
With 18 the "young man" was sent very far away to the study. It lasted no 3 days and Carmen originated in the life of the "young man".
This was in 1978. I did not know myself what would happen there, perhaps, in future. "Fear" of an originating homosexuality arose - however, the relations took place only with bio-girl. Another disposition did not arise.
The "type" realized the person "Carmen" beside the relations secretly. Then a happy chance in the form of nationwide vehicle transportations let Carmen on this longer travelling blossom so properly.
In 1983 my friend at that time discovered my female clothes on grounds of an accidental hospitalization. After 3 days - still in the hospital recumbent - the respect ended without comment. With the return in my flat I noticed, which is why end was.....
Then Carmen lived much more carefully in dealing with the female clothes. Many attempts by spontaneous decontaminating failed pitifully. From the front after at the latest 4 weeks the "shopping" of new clothes began.
From 1985 I landed by chance in the field service and Carmen was present with all trips straight through Europe. Strange looks on the basis of patterns to be declared on the part of the customs officials were briefly explained with the statement: "Friend follows or is there already".
In 1988 I got to know my woman and realized furthermore secretly partly by the travel activity "Carmen".
Because there were virtually no possibilities of the clarification at this time, became the pressure, however, to discuss stronger and stronger it. In September, 1996 I did not stand firm to this pressure anymore and confessed to my woman after 6 years of marriage the situation.
It was a shock! She had noted during about 8 years of the being together absolutely nothing. Of course the trust was also cracked. There flowed tears and many questions were put.
"What happens with you? "-", nevertheless, you become or are differently assessed sexually."
"Can one put down it?" etc. etc........
I did not know myself how I should manage this in future. Another sexual disposition was not given definitively - and I could also not have concealed this absolutely. The most difficult moment in this evening was her request to show - also in the body me the things. There Carmen would best have crept under the carpet.
One still spoke a lot in this evening and the next morning came. My woman fixed first the female utensils and supported me also directly by the acquisition of some of the necessary things.
There followed the time of watching me. What does the "type" make as Carmen?
Now Carmen officially undertook some Outdoor tours, more and more often carried also the clothes of Carmen in the house........ It was awfully releasing that the secret actions were not necessary. The "tours" also were supported by my woman. A compromise was closed: "Not in immediate nearness of our "Catholic" village".
I keep to this compromise even today, even if it goes meanwhile a little more laxly to. The "type" is still responsible for the occupation and the spare time is lived very strongly as Carmen. I call it a compromise between Carmen and the "type".
Clarification possibilities in the form of SHGs or him WEAVE at that time there was not still..........
Some time has lasted absolutely, to "Carmen" became as a third person in our childless marriage accept. Many fears with my woman played there a big role.
For a few years we also support to us in the matter of fashion, cosmetics etc. Being meanwhile rather entertainingly.
In summer of the last year we discovered as a WEB - muzzle the first forums. Some not answered questions to date found here also the missing answers.
Since some months I have even the support of my woman to support some other girl with her first steps after here with myself "Outdoors".
Everything resonates absolutely after one of 6th in the lotto - although we know meanwhile some married couples - and without children - where it also functions.
We are no isolated case!
It is not, unfortunately, with all in such a way. Here one also should or must understand the lines of thought of the bio-partners and accept. The time of the outing could also be decisively. The later it takes place the more difficultly, (unfortunately), it is................
Nevertheless, anyway most today's forums help to transmit here a lot of help in the form of information. This could lead again also to more understanding with the bio-women.
If you read these also as anonymous guests, does not avoid you to announce you here. There is still a big anonymity in the area of the information. One can announce only this one would want!
Should other questions exist, use simply the Thread or the PM.
Carmen