This probably is going to sound odd... But I basically have no idea where to position an STP.  On my body.  Maybe this is because I am extremely unacquainted with it, or it might be something else.  I was trying to get a good look down there and get over my dysphoria while doing so, and... Well, I don't know where the hell this "urethral opening" is supposed to be.  To be honest, from the diagrams I've looked at and used for comparison, I look odd.  The urethral opening is... Sort of... Well, it seems to have some sort of odd growth on it.    I haven't seen this in any diagrams or pictures.  And for that matter, the vaginal opening seems lost in oblivion.   

I hope this isn't too explicit; I am trying to look at it from a medical perspective!

Oh, and I still can't figure out where to put tubing for an STP (or a medicine spoon, for that matter).

Thanks, guys.

Well, since I can't quite point it out to you, you're going to have to play detective with your body in the privacy of your own bathroom.  First thing: start to pee, then stop.  Find where the pee is coming from by sticking your finger down there and feeling around.  Yes, its' gross, yes, you will pee on your hand.  Don't worry.  That's what hot water and soap are for!

Start to pee again and find the hole.  Should be on a little bump, usually just below your clit, under the labia.  Alternatively, if you don't want to pee on yourself, feel around down there with your fingertip and do some kegels.  You should feel the urethral bump move a bit.

Once you identify that spot, you can place the stp spoon part over that bump, hold firmly in place, and pee.

It will take practice, and even if you think you have it after the first couple of tries, keep doing it at home first.  Just when I thought I had it down I peed myself at work.  Not cool!  To get it consistently in the right spot takes practice.

Also, learn to control your initial flow of pee.  That way, if for some reason you mal-aligned the stp, you'll feel the pee leaking before you have a chance to embarrass yourself.  Stop peeing, reposition, and try again.

I know lots of us have dysphoria about these body parts, but it really is in your own best interest to know yourself intimately 'down there' for medical reasons.  It's really not all that mysterious.

Once you start T and your own dicklet grows, you'll have to practice re-aligning the stp, as the urethra will seem farther back.

Hope that helps.  And yes, a good diagram will help you at least aim your fingers in the right direction.  Trick is to get the flappy labia out of your way.


Jay

Hmm... Maybe I'm disfigured or something... It seems rather difficult to find, and for that matter, ambiguous at best.  And not just under the clit, but far, far down and... Partially obscured by something odd.

Gah, I'm making no sense at all. 

I shall try your suggestions, although paying more attention to all of this isn't exactly the best thought, as yes, dysphoria is uncomfortable... at best.

Thank you, Jay.

Edit: Well, after attempting said method it seems more clear...
Hah, you'd think I'd be more familiar with my own body, but it seems alien to me.

Quote from: Adrian on June 23, 2009, 10:45:06 PM
Hmm... Maybe I'm disfigured or something... It seems rather difficult to find, and for that matter, ambiguous at best.  And not just under the clit, but far, far down and... Partially obscured by something odd.

My junk is like that.  Hole is very far back from what used to be a clit.  In fact, the hole is much nearer the vaginal opening than the clit.  I never used to be able to clearly see the urethral bump; it was half-obscured by 'something odd'--aka the hymen, in my case.  There was no visible vaginal hole because, well, it was covered by the hymen... and then the gyno that I had to see prior to taking T ripped it clear open.  Damn that hurt.  I find it a lot harder to look at now that there's an actual opening *shudder*

Uuuugh, that makes me not want to see a gyno even more.  I hope that never happens to me.  But yeah, that's pretty much like what you described.  Just thinking about it is freaking me out.

Dude, try to get a female gyno if possible.  I know I'm generalizing here, but I think female gynos are more likely to be gentle if they know your hymen is still intact.  I had to go to have one of those... exams... twice in my life.  The first time, I got a female gyno who was very sensitive to the fact that things were still pretty closed off down there; she managed to do the exam without ripping the hymen completely off.  The pelvic exam/pap smear was uncomfortable, but not painful.

However, because she is just that awesome, she is usually booked 3-4 months in advance--and I didn't want to wait that long to take T.  So I booked with the other gyno--a guy who did not understand my concerns and didn't seem to care that much--because I only had to wait a week.  His attitude was pretty much: 'You are a woman.  You have a hole that is meant to be penetrated.  Why should that hurt?'  I'm sure being a doctor, he knows better, but... on a visceral level, he just isn't going to understand.  The female nurse in the room was cringing right along with me.  She understood.  I walked funny and had pains for about a week.  I'll stop bitching now.

I'm sure there are other male gynecologists out there who would try to be gentle.  But you just might have better luck with a female.  And on a side note, female hands are smaller on average...

I think seeing a gynecologist is one of my greatest worries, if not my greatest.  Is it necessary regardless of sexual activity?  I am completely and utterly virgin, have had nothing of a physical relationship in the past, nor intercourse.  I don't know how I would react to getting an exam such as that, but I feel like I'd cry.  It's already a sensitive issue.  But if I was injured in the process, I'd probably be swearing at the doctor.

Now I am dreading it completely.

i never had to have an exam, but my T prescribing doctor did reccomend one.

I've never been recommended for an exam like that, although blood work is always recommended and I need to get around to it.  Let's hope I can dodge the bullet, so to speak.  Maybe if I make some good remarks about how GID affects my feelings towards such exams, I will be able to get around it.

Quote from: Adrian on June 26, 2009, 12:22:05 AM
...Maybe if I make some good remarks about how GID affects my feelings towards such exams, I will be able to get around it.

try crying.  no seriously... i started crying when my doc started talking about it and i think i may have scared her a little. >_>  she then reassured me that im young and could probably put the exam off about a year unless i had my parts yanked before that.

If I imagine the exam in detail well enough, I think I can pull that off.  Although I'm a terrible crier.  My therapist says I'm a typical male.

Thanks for your advice.  Now, for field testing...