I AM LARAI have been a member of the site for a while now but realized that I had yet to introduce myself. I am Lara and I am a MTF currently in transition. I have been going through transition for the past four months now and as great as I would like to say that it is, it has been a difficult journey. There have been a lot of things that had to be done and a lot of obstacles I have had to overcome. The hardest thing I would say has been telling my parents.
When I first told my mother she seemed confused but curious, like she was ok with what I was going through, but needed just a little more information on the subject. She, however, has not been as open to my transition as I would have liked her to be. I feel that in a way she is one of my bigger road blocks. She refuses to accept me as her daughter and has made it very clear that I will always be her son. At first this made me wonder if I was making the right decision. It took the support of those I had in my life besides her to realize that she was just trying to bring me down, not help me through this hard period in my life. We still talk, but she has not been what I expected of her.
As for my father he was a little more accepting. I had sent him many emails on the subject and got no response. This worried me quite a bit until I finally got to speak with him on the phone. I asked him if he had received any of my email, to which he hadn't, so I once again after modifying my email to be up to date, resent it to him. This time it arrived. I was once again expecting to not hear anything from him but he was prompt to call me and to my surprise, more aware of my situation then I had imagined. My father was the one who raised me and had informed me that in a way he had always known this to be the case. So where as one parent is against what I am doing, the other seems to be one step ahead of me and that was a relief.
So I am still on my path to transitioning, through the good times and the bad, but I know that in the end the result will make all the hard times nothing less then an accomplishment. I know that I am meant to be a woman and I have come to the conclusion that nothing is going to hold me back. I will one day be the beautiful, strong, sophisticated woman that I have always dreamed of becoming and though the walk is tough, I will stay on my path less traveled only to reach the outcome I have always dreampt about.
I hope to be able to share more of my journey with all of you, as well as reading about your journey's as well.
LARA
