Ok, like anyone else starting up fears and what ifs are a common thing, but for the last 3 weeks mingling with excitement I have these what if fears I cant shake! Thoughts like what if my breasts don't grow right, what if they stay tin or only get to tannerstage3 or etc, or thoughts of what if effects don't turn out so well like my body wont respond to them well, i don't know, every time i comfort one, 4 more sprout up! They don't phase me, im excited and happy as can be to finally be going through with everything but the "WHAT IF!'s" are killin me! i know at this young age im at a prime age for GREAT results, like ive been told to not even consider worrying about the breasts and such, but grr my mind is too active, maybe i need some kind of anti-anxiety pills or such? Any idea of how to just calm down, ive been trying to ignore it but wow, they slip in and swarm!



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I'm probably not the best person to give advice but
most of the time, things turn out better than you expect. If you play all these worse case scenarios in your head, you won't be able to enjoy the fact that you're actually going through with this. If you just relax, then you'll be fine. If you can't stop thinking "what if," go to sleep. That solves all my problems   


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Quote from: Coatl on July 05, 2009, 05:29:09 PM
Ok, like anyone else starting up fears and what ifs are a common thing, but for the last 3 weeks mingling with excitement I have these what if fears I cant shake! Thoughts like what if my breasts don't grow right, what if they stay tin or only get to tannerstage3 or etc, or thoughts of what if effects don't turn out so well like my body wont respond to them well, i don't know, every time i comfort one, 4 more sprout up! They don't phase me, im excited and happy as can be to finally be going through with everything but the "WHAT IF!'s" are killin me! i know at this young age. im at a prime age for GREAT results, like ive been told to not even consider worrying about the breasts and such, but grr my mind is too active, maybe i need some kind of anti-anxiety pills or such? Any idea of how to just calm down, ive been trying to ignore it but wow, they slip in and swarm!

I've been on HRT for a decade and I have very little breast growth. Your anxiety is natural and I feel the same about it all. You may have a much better chance at 18 than someone who is 30 but it's not a bad thing to be level headed and have a realistic approach about things.

yeah you are right, im keeping calm and thinking of all ups and downs and as you said level headed, those bursts of anxiety are rough, just try to tell myself, no matter what its still better than male! haha I am just hoping for the best, genetics are so great to the girls in my family, i hope to get even a fraction of it

You already pretty much know my take on this, but what's the worst that can happen?
Breasts won't grow large enough? Uhm.. look at your sister, 'nuff said! If for some reason they don't, you can get those pills that will naturally stimulate growth.

Hips won't be feminine enough? Girl, you already have a bit of hips going on! Don't worry about it! You'll be fine!

Shoulders too wide? They're not too bad, and your breasts will help balance them out.

I don't think your face is that masculine at all. Seriously. You'll be getting rid of the facial hair soon, and that's the biggest problem. So that's no worry. Maybe do something to your eyebrows to thin them out a bit (but I'm not one to talk), your nose is not bad at all, I'd say it's average sized, good shape for female, you have some cheeks going on, so I don't think that'll be a problem either! Wear your hair chin to shoulder length in the front and it will frame your face very well!

Your feet are the same size as mine, so that better not ever be a fear! Paint your toenails, it'll be cute and you'll get addicted like me

Same goes for your hands, they aren't that big, just don't bite your nails, bitten nails don't look good on anyone, and they can hurt. Paint your nails and it'll look cute (okay, so maybe nail polish isn't necessary for fingers or toes, but I'm a nail polish whore, what do you expect? I still think you would look cute with green nails )

I think I covered just about everything, bottom line YOU HAVE NOTHING TO WORRY ABOUT!

Words to live by: "Nobody ever promised it would be easy, they just promised it'd be worth it" I'm not sure where I heard that from, but it's stuck with me!

If you absolutely have to worry, worry about clots and other potential side effects. At least that's something you can take steps to do something to avoid while still getting all your worry juice out. It will encourage healthy behavior and positive choices, and your body will respond in kind. If you worry about image too much, nothing is going to be good enough and you'll always feel like you aren't as pretty as you are.