Tell that nagging voice to 'shut the f up'. It is all those negative things you were told when young and it is all so much BS.
Let me ask, What did you feel? Not what the voice was saying? But how did you feel?
Wiccan s have a saying, "And it harms none, do what thy will". Were you harming anyone? It is cause the heavens open up and you be struck by lighting? No, because you are here telling us about it. It will get better as you realize that it is just part of who you are.
Janet