I think one of the worst parts is that you have to go to work and live life with pain that would knock a lot of people into bed and stand when your body wants to curl and die. Walk when your body is trying to stay still so the pain will ebb just a bit. Then you just want to clobber the first person that asks if your OK.

I hate it..
Lately,.. I've been having "collapse in to tears" moments a lot more often than I'm remotely comfortable with.
In fact.. I think I'll be going off the contraceptive pill in an attempt to reduce it..
Here's to hoping it doesn't come back to bite me..

Estrogen makes you cuckoo.  BTDT.

No offense, ladies.  Maybe estrogen makes men cuckoo, and testosterone makes ladies cuckoo.  When we get on our proper hormones we feel so much better!

But estrogen still makes ladies cuckoo, too.


::ducking and running::


Jay

So where's that one transman that disagrees? I still can't find him.

Estrogen is certainly making me look rather like a sissy. It's interfering with my running as well. Don't like being inexplicaby cranky either. Or bleeding out of genitals, as far as I'm concerned it's never a good sign.

It might just be me, but it feels like my brain is running on drugs. We'll see if I feel any better sans E.

SilverFang

I'm fairly certain that estrogen messed with my brain and gave me my mood disorder. But my depression started at menarche, a time that is emotionally horrifying for a teenage transman anyway...so who knows for sure how much of my depression was caused by hormones and how much by gender dysphoria.

I also pointed out to a buddy a few years ago that my mood improved considerably when I got well into perimenopause and my female hormone levels dropped. And he said, "Well, you must have been pretty happy when you stopped having your period."

Well, yes, I was. Deep in the closet, even to myself (only to myself?), and thinking, "I'm closer to being a man!"

I remember hearing the saying 'never trust something that bleeds for five days and doesn't die" hahahahaha
It sucks big time. I end up eating about 5-10 blocks of chocolate and copious amounts of other junk and still feel like crap. I hate that my depressions and dysphoria becomes really bad the week before. Like the glass is half empty, and its cracked, and I cut my lip and chipped a tooth...
Cheers
Jay

Quote from: jaydle83 on August 10, 2009, 11:53:42 AM
I remember hearing the saying 'never trust something that bleeds for five days and doesn't die" hahahahaha
It sucks big time. I end up eating about 5-10 blocks of chocolate and copious amounts of other junk and still feel like crap. I hate that my depressions and dysphoria becomes really bad the week before. Like the glass is half empty, and its cracked, and I cut my lip and chipped a tooth...
Cheers
Jay

I love that saying! 
I, for one, always feel irritable, cranky, and fatigued.  It elevates horribly before that time of the month.  I wonder if the proper hormone will do my brain justice.

Only 9?

Yes. Estrogen does suck. I just thoroughly enjoy how when the Red Death comes I get extra irritable and more apt to cry that my brother says rude comments about how "womanly" I really am.

Love the stereotyping sibling because of something in my body I can't control

/endsarcasm

Edit: I love your imhappyplz picture, Heartwood XD

Hell yes it sucks. The swings are bad enough, the copious bleeding is downright traumatizing, but the ABSOLUTE worst is the crying at work when someone pisses you off and you just *can't* help it, no matter how much you wish you could, and so you get frustrated with yourself, which brings the galldanged waterworks pouring even harder... *Right* in front of all the people you WISH would take you seriously as a guy and stop "lumping" you in with all the so-called "other" girls... Brutal, agonizing, downward spiral it is. 

A couple of months ago i was having dosage issues... and holy hell i was in the crabbiest mood ever.  Glad that sorted itself out.

I'm one of those 9

transmen aren't the only who think estrogen sucks!
I know guys who have estrogen phobia, afraid of it being too high!

They are avoiding soy products!!! :O

Quote from: sneakersjay on August 10, 2009, 08:06:14 AM
Estrogen makes you cuckoo.  BTDT.

No offense, ladies.  Maybe estrogen makes men cuckoo, and testosterone makes ladies cuckoo.  When we get on our proper hormones we feel so much better!

But estrogen still makes ladies cuckoo, too.


::ducking and running::


Jay

I find that people are generally cuckoo wheather they are on hormones or not.

Ahh, I can associate....only the other direction lol. I can be very volatile on T....><

Being on E for a bit in the past, I was still volatile, and in some cases more, but mainly cause I had more than just gender issues, I was suffering from depression. But yeah, E in general calmed me down, killed the storm in my mind.

Quote from: Heartwood on August 12, 2009, 02:03:05 AM
I find that people are generally cuckoo wheather they are on hormones or not.

I agree

Sorry for continued hijacking of this thread ^^;

Testosterone is just as bad.  Except you be come the Incredible Hulk when angry.

I'll swap any time gentlemen, a n y t i m e.

Now back to our host.......................

Janet

I suspect that E is harder on transmen since we have male brains and T is harder for transwomen because they have female brains. A brain being flooded with a hormone not meant to be dominant is bound to cause problems.

BTW who is this 10th guy?

Yeah, I'd like to meet this 10th guy that actually likes E.   

I'm beginning to wonder if my anxiety in early childhood started because of a flood of estrogen in my system, particularly when I neared puberty.  Or it may have been situational, being that I was living in the wrong role.  It got a lot worse once my younger brother was born.

Alright, alright... I'll be that tenth and admit that I like E.


... Just not in my body, thanks. 

Well  I am glad to be free of that. The red deathed stopped the first month I was on a full dose. 1/2 dose did nothing to get rid of it.
Myles