hrmmm... training my speaking voice seems a bit too much like faking it to me? If it works for you, go for it, just not for me. I'm a little foggy on what "me" is, but i think my voice may be a part of it afterall.
Maybe if i combine it with something i can't do where i have to get a new voice anyway. Like kfixing my pronounciation in german? Do you think that would be harder or easier? I wouldn't have to re-learn the feminine way i sound already? and i'm not loosing any of my fragile "self" in the process, it's all gain. Hrmmm... this could be a tall order finding a german speaking voice coach? could just coppy TYill Leiderman, but i think he totally over-does it on the germanic probnounciation anyway (or so a german native speaker tells me anyway), and no born-woman (not even most born men) will sound half the man he is, ever.
I think i do REALLY want to sing like a man though. I can sing passably as a woman, but i don't like female vocalists at the best of times, and i don't think that singing voice is part of "me", i just don't like it. Ever since i was a kid i wanted to be in the boys section of the chior etc. I want to sing like a man, Rob Halford, Bruce Dickenson, Ronnie James Dio, heck, i'd settle for Blazze Bailey or Ripper Ownes!
Is this a reasonable ambition? I'm thinking not. There are heaps of men who can't sing like these guys

hrmmm... and i'm not exactly high on musical tallent either. Is it worth a shot, or will i just get drepressed in the doomed failure?
I asked a male friend (who is also one of the best singers in town, performs live in several relatively successful bands) if he could teach me to sing like a man, and he innitially said yes, but then said that the only real option was the "death growl", that beastly androgyneous sound popular in modern metal. But i don't think that's very manly, i wouldn't sound like a man that way, i'd sound like the blonde barbie chick from Arch Enemy... i don't like Arch Enemy barbie...
Is ittotally hopeless to want to sing like a real man? a real metal god? or am i chassing rainbows here?
Do i need a singing teacher, or a trans vocal coach, or both?