I don't know what to do anymore

All my life I've gotten the crap end of the stick. And I've grown accustomed to it. Screw it right? What can I do. Get over it, move on. Cry a little here and there, but get over it. Play some star fox, some halo, some soul calibur and I'll be fine.

But this summer.. it just seems that something is out to get me. Every single stupid little thing that brings me happiness just falls appart... I began this summer on top of the world. I was in love, I had a job, I had some good friends around. I had planned to go see her in august. Things were just wonderful.

Before I know it my heart is broken.. The one thing I had planned for this summer is now on the rocks.. Okay. You know what, I can do it.. We can be friends. I care enough that I will be happy just being there as a friend. But no. Plans are changed.. I can't go because.. what? The cat? are you serious? Yes.. I can't visit because it might upset the family cat.. Yeah okay either this is the most eccentric family or that is just an awefully weak excuse.

Now I've had to quit my job. With depression eating me alive I couldn't bring myself to go to work. And I had to decide. Quit, or be fired.. knowing my state I knew I wouldn't be making it in for a few days, best to quit then be fired. Now no love, no plans, no job.

Well now I have some money at least. Don't need to really do anything with it.. since I no longer needed train tickets, and living with mom, I don't have to buy food or anything [in fact she refuses to let me help] So I get FFXI. This will be fun at least, and give me something to do. I try to get friends involved but my friends are begining to become busy with their own lives. Oh well, meet new people..

Well after weeks of playing, I meet very few people to become friends with and as they learn more about me some hurt my feelings, some just disapear. And me being so lonely at this point, I haven't been able to get a friend to see me in weeks and unable to do anything, and with very little money anymore, I have to quit... so now I have nothing to do. and of course, the day I quit, my cable is cut. had I known I wouldn't have TV, I'd have just kept playing, even with no friends.

Now with no TV and no game to occupy me, and no friends available to visit me more then once every other week, I just feel worse and worse.

I have an xbox 360, but most of my games require some one to play WITH me to be any fun. alone they're just depressing

That is, until I got the latest Batman game. I am Such a Batman fangirl. Since the first mention of this game I have been waitng for it. Unfortunately for me, mom had a change of heart and decided she needed me to help a bit. Of course I would do this no matter what, shes me mom, and I live in this house. If I have I will give. The money I had saved for the game was given to my mom. she promised and promised she'd pay me back before the game came out. this didn't happen. The closer the day the came to the game's release the more miserable I was.

A wonderful close friend decided to get the game for me, to cheer me up. since she finally got a job she has money and she wanted to make me happy. And I was so incredib;y happy. We went and got it on the midnight release! We came right back to my house after we got it and played it. Only for about two hours then I was super tired, went to bed. next day around one or so I wanted to play again. played for about half an hour and noticed that suddenly there was green pixels flickering about the screen. I thought it was just part of the game since it wasn't affecting menus

I decided to take a break. little while later I try to turn my xbox back on.. I am greeted with the wonderful Red Ring...

I have NO money to replace my console and no other options.. my dad lost my warrenty, which would have helped, its still valid till november..

I have a week till I go back to school, where I will have no TV, because that broke too.

now I guess it could be childesh to become angry and miserable and depressed about a video game console breaking, but that console was important to me.. Everyone has object or hobby that they love. that they need. If they didn't have or didn't do they would lose their mind.

through out all the crap I've had to deal with, I could deal with it because, hell I can play some games and work it out there.

I know this is a senseless rambling rant.. I'm sorry I couldn't put it as nicely as my last rant.. I just don't have it in me anymore

no clue why I have this kind of luck, all the damn time. sometimes I wish I believed in a god so I could at least point a finger and have some one to blame.. but no. thats just life.. everything is a roll of a die. and I have aweful luck. Hopefully my computer doesn't burst into flames, so I can at least see if anyone has anything to say about all this.

:/

Sorry, I seem to have somehow accidentally locked your topic while I was reading it the last time.

Is unlocked now..

:/ Really Sorry.

Hey a friend of mine named Reiko Hanogi can help you out, he knows a way to fix the red rings of death, check the plug ins and everything. I got the red rings of death as well a while back, the problem was the system wasn't plunged up right. Well anyway ask Reiko Hanogi or his brother Ryan Runz XBL, they may be able to help, hope to see you online again soon.

I'm so sorry that happened Jushi. I'm attached to my Mp3 player like you are your xbox, I'd be hopeless without it. Next month I'm getting an ipod touch (can hardly wait!), but I think I'll hang onto my little zen afterword for posterity. Wev'e been to a lot of places together, she and I 

Only a week until school starts again, is there anything you can do or are you in thumb twiddling hell? I occasionally play Anarchy Online, a free game you can play online with even a crappy puter. There's lots of other time killers like it, just an idea to get you through.

Dungeons & Dragons online is going free, it'll be released for download on 09/09/09 (in under two weeks).
I'll be playing it and probably making a guild with a group of nutbar friends and my husband.
You (and anyone else who's reading this) are welcome to join us.

Quote from: Miniar on August 27, 2009, 06:31:35 AM
Dungeons & Dragons online is going free, it'll be released for download on 09/09/09 (in under two weeks).
I'll be playing it and probably making a guild with a group of nutbar friends and my husband.
You (and anyone else who's reading this) are welcome to join us.

is that so? I'd Love to join you! I play a human Ranger, not sure how well that works in the online video game version but heres hoping!

Also! My sister bought me a new Xbox! She finally found a buyer for her old piano and used some of it to get me a new xbox! Supposedly the new versions do NOT get Red Ring, and just in case I got a warrenty. My old xbox will be shipped out to be fixed and I will be giving it to my little brother =] He deserves it, hes a wonderful sweet kid. Hes always ready to knock some one out if they look at me funny.

Games aren't his life like they are mine, but he does like playing. And the both of us having xbox's will give us a way to stay close while I'm at school. Poor kid is gonna be lonely. With me and sis away for school, its just gonna be him, mom and his cat.

I feel like my luck might just be finally turning around =]

I'll be running a halfling thief myself.
I have played the human ranger before and it was quite alright.