Hi, I'm Aurora.
I'm a lesbian MTF person living in Tokyo. I started dieting very systematically 2 years ago, with the goal of losing both body fat and muscle mass. This is successful and progressive. I think I will mostly be done with the shrinking by next summer. I started HRT a year ago, and at the same time I have laser hair removal sessions.
I had Adam's apple shaving last spring, the scar is now almost completely gone.
I am planning to have FFS with Dr. Ousterhout next year, I'm going to San Fransisco for a preliminary consultation, measurements and X-rays at the end of September, and I plan to go full time a short while after the FFS.
SRS can wait a bit more, as it is less important for transition, and anyway, I don't have a partner...
It's difficult to find a partner when you are both transgendered and lesbian. Natal women consider you as a friend at best, with a bit of curiosity but nothing more, and often, lesbian women hate you... I have excellent relationship with a hermaphrodite person, who feels she is more feminine that masculine despite assuming the social male role (she is even married and father of a child). I have been for a while deeply in love with another MTF person, but she left me for a homosexual guy who actually had physical intercourse with her... that left me quite depressed because she was lying and hiding that other relation from me for months... I still love her, but as a memory, for what we shared together cannot be undone... sorry to say that, but that's my experience so far.
Currently, I am in love, again... this time with a admirable lesbian woman who I hope is loving me back. I guess several months will elapse before I know this is true and enduring love. I'm hoping... I trust her, but life made me sad and a little bit paranoid.
I didn't choose to be that way, so I guess I have to suffer and be patient, until my transition is complete. Then I can blend in and live a life as normal as possible. My dream is to be a normal, loving wife...
I am trying to train my voice as often as possible, but I'm still in the beginning stages, it will probably take quite a while to reeducate my vocal tract.
I came to this forum to keep in touch with my own kind.
I hope to find support and to share my meager experience.
I also write a blog, but it's in Japanese, so it won't be very helpful for most of you.
Love,
Aurora
PS: by the way, how do you upload your avatar ?
