Laughing would of been a blessing. I got raped in a bar, got told it was my fault, told my mom i think i might be a women, and got kicked out.

I'd take laughing any day.

Quote from: bigrift on September 06, 2009, 10:00:53 PM
spooky stuff

Sweety are you seing a therapist? Seriously. County mental health departments are cheap or free, if you aren't already for your own sake please do.

My oldest brother, who is a doctor but is still utterly ignorant about trans issues, refuses to use my new (and legal) name. When I last confronted him about it, three years post-transition, he laughed and said "whatever." I'll never forget it. I haven't spoken to the man since, and don't plan to.

I think they laugh because there's nothing else that they can do.  They have no basis of comparison to go off of.  They're not laughing at you - they're laughing for the sake of laughing.  It really depends on the situation.  In this case, she was laughing because it's an unusual name now-a-days.  It reminds me of Curious George or Jimmy Stewart(as George Bailey) - but if you like the name, and you identify as George, then go for it!  Some will go with it, some won't - and to hell with those who won't.

Whatever is another word that hurts. I remember I was singing the song "It's raining men!" and I asked my mom what kind of men she would like it to rain, and see said "I don't know". So, I said, "well I would like it to rain lesbian men, so that even all straight women can have a lesbian's love" and there was a pause. Then she said, "So you're going up to Seattle to get a sex change operation?" and I said, "Don't know" (which I did mean). And in the coldest voice imaginable she said, "Whatever."

Stupid b*t*h. I hope I commit suicide and she feels guilty the rest of her life. But she won't, because it's all my fault. Because I ate mushrooms one time, and after that I started having breakdowns. So she sees mushroom use, breakdowns, and says "Mushroom use causes breakdowns. Stupid kid, its all his fault because drugs are bad so he's bad." Never got the differences between "cause and effect" and "correlation". Stupid bithc. If she were dying I would just watch, and as she begged, I would coldly look her in the eye and say "Whatever". And if you knew me, how much I have loved not only her but the whole world, (Jesus, I love Hitler), you would understand the significance of that. And if you don't, either please PM me to find out, or go die for being such an intolerant, bigoted, scum of the earth.

Usually I would say "Peace and Love", but the emotions I just expressed I'm probably just going to take a Klonopin before someone (myself included, and the most likely) gets hurt.

Bigrift, honey, please find someone to talk to.  There's a lot of stuff in there eating you up.  Don't let it eat you and destroy you.  You can sort it out and find a better place to be if you talk to someone who is trained to help you make sense of it.  Please, for your sake, get some help.  Life doesn't have to be this bad.

*hugs*
Kate

Quote from: K8 on September 08, 2009, 07:58:42 AM
Bigrift, honey, please find someone to talk to.  There's a lot of stuff in there eating you up.  Don't let it eat you and destroy you.  You can sort it out and find a better place to be if you talk to someone who is trained to help you make sense of it.  Please, for your sake, get some help.  Life doesn't have to be this bad.

*hugs*
Kate

God Damn it, I so mind ->-bleeped-<-ed and drained i can't even leave my room unless I take a Klonopin (and then I REALLY can't leave the room). I honest to god NEED someoone to find me a therapist and take me there, because I'm so drained I can't handle the stress of it. Please don't take this as a poor me, this is the first time I've ever said this, and the idea seems to be shared among anyone who talks to me for more than five minutes...I had a f*d life.

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QuoteIf she were dying I would just watch, and as she begged, I would coldly look her in the eye and say "Whatever". And if you knew me, how much I have loved not only her but the whole world, (Jesus, I love Hitler), you would understand the significance of that.

The fact that I have been pushed to this point makes me just want to paint an incredibly beautiful painting, say "La tristesse durera toujours", and...

My mother did when I first came out to her while the therapist was present and we left soon after. While on the route home she even said she though I had been gay and if that was the case I'd hvae been on the street.  This?  This we can fix though.  That leads into the -fun- years.  Laughing is a terrible way to cope even if that is their reason and I think they should learn to stop or rather?  Should have learned to stop doing that years ago to anyone.

My dad has known for a few months but I recently told my mother, sister, and brother. None of them laughed at me, they're too worried to think it's funny in any way heh.