So im thinking to myself, maybe i act up so much in day to day life, with the drugs and parties and not really being a very usefull person in general and not careingf what other people think of me because i feel so dissassociated with the made up persona, it doesnt seem like im resposible cos its not really me?

When i let down the shield i feel sort of helpless, like i need someone ot hold my hand and show me the way. Its like the shield i used to hide my fem-andro side sort of became like a shield from the rest of the world?

I dont really know its late and ive been smoking so i could read this tomorrow and consider it a load of crap, well have to see

Its best not to post when your high.  You might say things you will regret later.


Sarah L.

I agree, but i think that was actually pretty on the money............... doesnt really show me where to go but seeing it written down sort of helps. Ive definately made less sense while high...............

Destructive behavior is generally indicative of issues like depression and dysphoria is definitely a cause of depression.  Well, actually it works both ways.  Depression can worsen dysphoria as well, so you may need to examine things and find out the exact root of it all.