The moment I have the money, Im getting the knife.

Maybe its incomplete, but I look at it like an integer scale. -10(for us guys) being female, and +10 being fully male. I was born around a -7, if I just get to 0 Id be a hell of alot more comfortable. As it is now though, Im looking at about 3-5 and thats a miracle. Im not going to spend 85 years in a body that doesnt function worth a crap hoping someday theyll have a full cure. Wheels may not be legs but at least you can get around.

I plan on a hysterectomy with oophorectomy and probably vaginectomy (done all at once). I also want to get a meta and scrotoplasty. At first I wanted a phalo but after more research I probably won't. Alot of that will depend on growth and the meta results. Even though I'd love a (more realistic) penis I don't want one with the sensitivity of just my arm, leg or side.

If someone truly loves you genitals would not matter, I've known straight guys who are married to trans-girls and even been married for 30 + years--Sex isn't everything and E really makes it smaller...It's not like people are going to stare down there anyways (Unless they are really dirty)...But still; It's none of their business...Love comes from the heart not the penis/vagina. 

Though I may just con what I just said, I may get the surgery needed but not for sexual purposes; Mainly for hygiene and lowering the T levels that come from retaining the "male" parts.

Yes, SRS is a goal of mine to do one day.  I doubt I'd be happy keeping it around at all.

As an MtF, my short term goal (several months away) to start HRT and long term (when the money exists) I plan on FFS and SRS. For me anything less would be too unreasonable to bear. I have spent 48 years in this body and even though I 'could' continue to live this way, knowing that there is an effective solution, I need to pursue it with all of my energy.

What do I do in the meantime? Well, I am still new and just starting off on the road to exploring my true self. In fact last night was my first time out of the house. The first and far from the last. Until things really get underway, I will continue with tucking, breastforms, wigs, and makeup. As long as I can be somewhat passable, then I will be able to bide my time.

Deanna

If that's you in your pic, Deanna, you're pretty cute

I am all for having bottom surgery...I don't want to be a trans-man, I want to be a man. With no question about that...and having a vagina will just remind me of that time when I was always seen as female, and I'll be paranoid that anyone I'm involved with sexually will only see me as such as well.

Thinking of a meta with scrotal implants and urethral lengthening. Looking now for any way to get some extra length to that...my goal being 3-4 inches, but also no way I can afford injectable HGH and don't know if oral forms of it work enough to be worth trying. My priority is to start T and chop off the girly titties.

Quote from: chrissyboy on September 27, 2009, 01:19:18 AM
If that's you in your pic, Deanna, you're pretty cute

Yes, Chrissyboy, that is, mostly, me. The hair is a wig (the real stuff is much grayer and growing), the makeup (professionally applied), the boobs (breast forms), the rest is all me - taken at the Southern Comfort Conference on Friday. Thanks for the compliment. 

Deanna

Yeah Deanna I remember your old picture and you look a lot better now. Not like a man at all IMO.

Oh yeah and to answer the question, FTM bottom surgery blows. Not dysphoric enough about my lower parts for a prosthetic or an $80,000 armdick.

Still going to hope HGH with T will help, if it doesn't, I'll consider keeping my normal parts. I probably won't want to take asexuality on T.

SilverFang

Am I the only person who when I first saw this thread, thought it was about butt surgery?! LOL!!!

Are you? Im post bottom surgery
If in between, what do you do to help you overcome it? I am going to have a pubic phallo

In ftm case, use a packer, use a realistic packer, use a prosthetic? I use a packer and a prosthetic.

If not, what are you willing to do to change it? I am having the surgery..

Are you willing to undergo surgery? yes

Or just use some type of prosthetic? see above

Jay

Quote from: Jay on September 27, 2009, 09:34:52 AM
I am going to have a public phallo


Jay

umm... say what?

No bottom surgery for me.  I don't use a packer or any prosthetics.  What I have down there really doesn't bother me

Quote from: Nero on September 27, 2009, 09:45:29 AM
umm... say what?

Pubic damn it! Thats the second time I have had to correct that post! *face..palm*

Jay

Quote from: Chamillion on September 27, 2009, 04:21:19 PM
No bottom surgery for me.  I don't use a packer or any prosthetics.  What I have down there really doesn't bother me.

I envy you guys.

My opinions on bottom surgery is a surgery to complete the esthetics side of things, otherwise you are female or male regardless how you are mapped.

In theory, there is never (and I use the term loosely) a time in your life where you are uncertain of your gender.

It might seem, like it. However, between how you feel as a child and at this point in time is how you felt all along. It's up to you to really realize that rift in your lifetime that this is the reality.

There is no escaping it, only a selected handful grew out of it completely, while some just took time.

While (most) of us are mapped a certain way, we will tend to go full out and esthetically make our body's match how we feel. A lot of people have their ups and down views on this however it basically comes down to YOU.

How do YOU feel? Are YOU sure you want to do this? Do YOU think this is right for YOU?

I personally am BI but have a stronger tendacy towards men, and too me to have something dead between my legs that I can't use regardless due to hormonal effect is a nuissance and I need it to be gone.



-Sara

Quote from: Radar on September 28, 2009, 06:58:47 AM
I envy you guys.

I do feel lucky in a way that my bottom dysphoria's not bad. If I ever had bottom surgery, it would be more for society than for me.

Other than having more fun masturbating, I feel no need for a penis.

Quote from: Nero on September 28, 2009, 08:12:21 AMI do feel lucky in a way that my bottom dysphoria's not bad.

Yeah, mine's pretty bad. Always has been.

Quote from: Radar on September 28, 2009, 09:04:56 PM
Yeah, mine's pretty bad. Always has been.

same.  even before i knew i was trans. >_<  i just thought i had hardcore penis envy.

No questions asked, ever! hate what's down there

too bad I can't donate it to you