Hello, I posted an intro last night and several recommended seeing a gender therapist.... I actually did have an appt. scheduled for this evening, with a well-recommended therapist who specializes in gender... I met with her, oh, probably about 9 or 10 years ago, but wasn't really ready to follow through with anything. I met with her once, and that was it.
Anyway, meeting with her tonight was very uplifting. What I realized, is that now in my late 30s, I feel really ready to explore this part of me. I felt very accepted, for whoever I was, which is still an open question... and encouraged to explore it. She asked me if I had thought about electrolysis, mentioned that a "big sister" might be good for me and asked if it would be OK if she put me in touch with someone she thought would be good... wasn't pushing me, more offering encouragement in a direction that she sensed I want to go.
I've never really done anything concrete towards figuring me out. I mentioned to her that I had just got my ears pierced about a week ago... she saw that as me almost planting a flag... this is who I am... something that I can't hide from others. I want to run with this and see where it goes. I've spent over 30 years hiding and being somewhat ashamed of whatever-this-is, and it is time to let that go. I want to try laser hair removal and then electrolysis for the lingering gray hairs that are left behind. Not sure where I'll get the money for it, but I'll figure it out.
Sorry such a long post from such a newbie... but I don't have anyone else I can share this with, and I am excited (and a little scared, if I am being honest) about it. Thanks for listening to my rambling post.
P.S. Oh, and she complimented me on my hands... she looked down at my hands and said, "wow, you have very small hands!," with a smile. For whatever reason, I loved hearing that. Small, yes. Dainty, not so much.
