Hello all of you,

I'm so glad I found this forum. I've been 'walking around' with a personal 'transgenderissue' for many years allready and I felt really allone with that. But, since I found this forum I have the idea that I'll meet some people here that feel likewise.

Anyways, I don't want to bother you with my 'problems' (yet ;-). I'm just a person who doesn't either feel male or female. In my mind I think I feel mostly genderless. But anyways, I won't bother you with that right now. Just glad to have found this forum to get in touch with people who walk this earth with similar 'issues'.

Talk to you soon,
Love, Enki

Hi Enki,

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Janet

Hi Janet,

thank you very much for your very fast reaction  A family sounds good! I can use one with the feelings I have. I feel home allready. Time to start reading around here and get to know my 'new' family-members' 

Love, Enki

Look, you found another one!  Welcome to the forums hun, plenty of family here. Sit back, relax, and make yourself at home .

yeah genderlessness is whats up, the time has past for that childishness

Welcome, Enki. 

Most of my life I felt male and female, both and neither.  I had every intention of losing my male identity without gaining a female one.  I wanted to be what I felt I was: both and neither.  So I understand to a certain extent what you are saying.

Once I shed my male persona, though, a female one has seemed a natural fit.  You may not do that.  There are lots of stops along this route.    You can get off the bus anytime you want.

Happy exploring! 

- Kate

Thanks for your reactions 

May I bother you with my 'story'? Feel free to give reacions, analyse, or whatever. Since I can't tell my story anywhere else (well, I can, but I doubt if I will be understood). Excuse me for complaining a lot in what I have to say. i've been walking around with these feelings a whole lot of years and I think that it'll all come out now while I start typing. So, beware 

Hmm, I wish I could write my story but the textbox isn't cooperating. When I type I cn't see what I'm typing because it dissapears underneith the textbox. Hhhmmpff, is there a limit of textlines I can type on this forum?

X, Enki

As far as I know there is no limit.  Try writing it in a word processor program and then copy and paste.  Works for me.

Janet

Quote from: Enki on July 31, 2009, 08:43:19 PM
Hmm, I wish I could write my story but the textbox isn't cooperating. When I type I cn't see what I'm typing because it dissapears underneith the textbox. Hhhmmpff, is there a limit of textlines I can type on this forum?

I hate that.   (I thought it was just my machine. )  As Janet said, if it's more than a few lines, I write in Word and then cut and paste.

- Kate

Hi all of you again,

After having some problems with that textbox-issue and some problems with a new computer on which I hadn't installed a proper word processor program, I'm back to 'bother' you with my story.

As I mentioned before, I kinda feel genderless. My body defines a gender, but my mind doesn't quit accept it. Especcially in 'normal day life' it really annoys me that my environment expects me to behave to the standards of the sex that my body belongs to. Hmmpf, it would be so much more easy If I could, and to some point I do, but it makes me feel unhappy. It makes me feel as if I'm acting. As if I'm not being myself. As if I pretend to be a person that everyone expects me to be according to my bodily appearance.

I'm not really a very 'spiritual' person. I'm pretty much 'down-to-earth' so to say. But here's what I 'feel' in my mind, what my soul, my spirit, my inner-self, my higher-self, my ghost, or whatever you want to call it feels:

I feel that the 'life-giving-energie' inside of me is genderless. It is an energy that could function in a female body as well as in a male body. And somehow I feel that I am more in touch with this energy than with my body. So I think that this is the reason why I feel genderless.The fact that this life-giving-energy is 'captured' in this body seems more like a coincidence.

Hmm, does sound kinda spititual after all, but I don't know how else I could describe it.

Somehow it just comes down to this: I think that the 'life-giving-thing' inside of us is genderless and that normally a person will not experience the fact that this energy is genderless and thus just accepts it's body and acts to what is expected from her or him in society.

It's all those standards in sociely that make it so hard. If only I could act the way I feel. And I do, I try to do that as often as possible. But it's not easy because most of the times people put me into that square which my body tells them to put me in.

I'm sorry to bother you with this boring story. Somehow I wish that people would understand that I'm neither or both or whatever and don't expect me to behave in a certain way.

Anyways, this had to come out, and now hat it has, I can dive into this forum and swim around and hope to find some good feelings around here. But please feel free to give your reactions to what I wrote and if possible some ideas to how to handle with these feelings.

Lot's of love,

Enki

Hi Enki.  Welcome back.

There is much to who we are that is genderless.  And as one who for too long hated being put into a box, I think I know what you are saying.  (I think.  )  I remember many times when I hadto use a public restroom and being perplexed that I had to choose between one of only two doors.

Look around.  You might start with the androgyne threads, but jump in anywhere you feel comfortable.

Happy exploring!

- Kate

Yo and Welcome Enki.

Hi and welcome to Susan's!

This is a really great place with lots of info and also a lot of really caring and helpful people. Jump right on in and start sharing your opinions, feelings, experiences. It's what helps us all relate to one another and give and receive the support we're here for.

My partner is androgyne/genderqueer. Sie identifies as "not quite male, but definitely not female" and prefers to be genderless than to try to conform to either of the binary options. Both of us has found a lot of support and information here even though our individual situations are quite different. I hope you're able to find the same!

Hey Enki..

welcome to Susans...u have come to the right place to talk to people who are going through similar things...it has helped me out quite a bit...so pull up a seat and enjoy your stay here..

~Smashley~

Thank you al for your reactions. It makes me feel less lonely in my 'search'.

Love,

Enki

hi there