Last night I went to my ex's place. We're on good terms but we don't really talk or hang out a whole lot because it's potentially awkward. When I was talking to her on MSN, I got the impression she might be 'receptive' to me if you know what I mean. I broke up with her like two years ago, but I've been fairly lonely lately (I don't like being single one little bit,) and she knows about my ->-bleeped-<- and I've been feeling especially lonely concerning that lately. So I dolled myself up as femininely as possible as I could without dressing (except for the underwear of course.) I brushed my hair a certain way, put on like.. three layers of lip gloss and made sure I had a feminine stance and walk for the night. I got there and there were like five people, and I felt all deflated and embarassed with how excited I was getting over something I knew wasn't happening. I wish there was somebody that I could just be myself around for a change...
