Hello everyone!
Today is Thursday, October 29th...2009 and it is officially 9:35 P.M.
Earlier today at my school my 4th period teacher for history Mr. Johnson openly had an verbal fight with me in front of the whole class about me being transgendered and how I was...
The teacher said that homosexuality is an sin, that all gay people are the same and since the trans people are grouped with the gays, they're gay also!
He also said that it's gross and an monstrous concept for people being different...
99% of the class also does not accept or even appease the idea of transgendered people, they poke fun at me and spread seriously bad rumors about me; More of the latter though.
I already have to deal with pain from school others in all of my other classes and at lunch, now to have more 4th period teacher do the same is so fooking sad! The other sad thing? I know if I tell on them that the classmates won't back me up and the majority of the office called my mom today and says that I have become a "distraction" at school and for my own good, "I should fit in better with everyone else."
So besides a few staff members like the Principal, the Nurse and the Counselor...Most of the staff don't like me; Simply for the fact that I am transgendered and they think I am an "distraction" to others!
I ended up crying all of 5th period and in 6th I was really quiet...Which normally with my friends--I'm actually an loud, happy, friendly person -- Which is the reason why I have a lot of friends and I am even friends with the cheerleaders and the popular kids in school (Which I think also leads to why the whole school knows about me)...But besides that point, most people asked why I was sad and crying; But I just wanted to cry it out.
On the way home, my mother started telling me about how the world and even in politics that "Gays, lesbians, transgendered people and bi people are taboos in society! The bible even says that one shall honor ones father and mother", which I take as being "normal" like everyone else--She also said I should..."Tone it down" and "Quit trying to become a girl for an while."
So first! She brings up the bible, then tells me to hide who I am and then says that I am trying to become a girl, I've told her for about the millionth time that transgendered people don't become girls/guys, that they are who they desire but their brains don't match their bodies and their will. She doesn't understand...It makes me soooooo livid sometimes!!! -_-"
Well with all the dark, ominous, gloomy Halloween stuff aside...I'm going to be an dead bride tomorrow (You're suppose to dress up for Halloween on Friday since Halloween is on Saturday) but I toke this classic theme and twisted it into my own version! =]
So there's some up to the down...And hopefully the irony of Halloween and dark "brilliance" will end from others...And then...In hope and dreams; Maybe we'll finally all be understood.