Much has been made of  ->-bleeped-<-, the supposed erotic attraction of MTF's to their female image.

Half humorously and half seriously I propose autopaleoandrophilia, that is the erotic attraction of an MTF to their previous male presentation.

When you look at old photos of yourself, do you say, "I would so have sex with that guy!"?
Does a new realization come of your former attractiveness?
Moreover, do you realize how unexploited the old attractiveness was?
This has nothing to do with regret.

(This question is also open to FTM's.)

I would counter act that and say that I love my current image and not anything in the past (Yuck)

It curious as to why MTFs have been associated to  ->-bleeped-<- but nothing, to my knowledge, has been done the same for FTMs. Double-standard? An assumption by people as to the "true cause" of MTF transsexualism?

They look Ok, I guess

I think I looked ok to other people, I never had a problem getting mates or anything. I know I was not the type of guy I was looking for (too sensitive, emotional (not like crying or hysterical emo, just kind of "feelings-blah-blah-blah-emotional") and I'm not looking for that in a guy at all. I liked that I had ambition and drive, dressed nice and was very clean, those are nice attributes. I see old pictures and it's just someone else, it feels like a different life. I don't hate it or despise it, it is so far from any kind of reality I face now that I can look back with fondness. If I didn't have the life I have now, I know I could never do that Meghan

Looks wise ok.  Seems to be a happy go lucky guy, with a violent short lived temper.  But date him, No.  I don't even have many pictures and the ones I have, the eyes look so sad.


Janet

While I performed well in the old skin, those days are gone, behind me.  What you suggest Renate, really turns my stomach. 

This topic is just TOO cute! Anyway it doesn't really matter what I would have wanted, that weirdo wasn't into girls.

He was a nice enough guy, but was just so sad all the time and he always seemed a bit lost to be honest. Actually I guess what I feel is pity. My therapist has gotten me so averse to dis-integrating myself like this it is now hard to think of "him" as being separate from myself. He's just a sad chapter of my life that is thankfully now over.

I still have some pictures of myself from last year where I posed nude for a romantic interest of mine then and. . .They make me feel a little nauseous, not just in the appearance itself but in knowing I once looked like that. (So much yucky hair.) I will say, though, I've always thought I had a decent face. It's features are kind of soft and its eyes wise.

But I know other people saw other things in my face that I can only take their word for because I can imagine my feelings would yield those things. I've been told often I looked angry, sad, or in deep thought. Over the last few months, though, people swear there's something different about me but they can't place it. I haven't started HRT yet, so the only thing I can figure out is they're seeing my growing sense of inner peace.

She looks way too heavy, or way too light depending on the year. Wild-eyed, sleep deprived, dirty clothes and oily, tangled hair; very artistic, but a nasty mean streak; severely antisocial. Clothes never fit (hardly even looked decent) except when someone else dressed her... and then she looked awkward and uncertain, afraid, always trying to cover herself up. Cringed and lashed out at people who told her she had any redeeming physical qualities.

Yeah, I'd hit it.  I love me now, and I love me from before... I just didn't love me before. Even filthy, poorly dressed, and in bad physical health I had a certain attractive allure (based on how other people acted towards me). Never did anything with it or about it, except try to hide it, and often hated myself that I had something other people didn't and couldn't make good use of it.

Quote from: Linus on November 04, 2009, 07:18:52 AM
It curious as to why MTFs have been associated to  ->-bleeped-<- but nothing, to my knowledge, has been done the same for FTMs. Double-standard? An assumption by people as to the "true cause" of MTF transsexualism?

Because you don't exist. Only MTF's exist and all MTF's are just men who either have a paraphilic love for the idea of themselves as women, or are an example of extreme homosexuality.

Or so seem to believe the creator/s of the " ->-bleeped-<-" diagnosis.

Just another reason I refuse to use the term seriously (I think the described paraphillia probably does exist, but I don't want to validate the opinions of creator of the term by using it).

To get back on topic for a moment, I clicked "other". I don't much like to see old pictures of me, and the one's of me as a kid I have a hard time associating as even me.

I am amused by the thought of me maybe being a sexy woman named Kylie. As for my evil twin, I hate that bitch. She was ugly and awkward. Even when she was pretty she looked like someone she wasnt. As for the thought of me being aroused by being a man, I am a man so why would that be so amazing?

I was told repeatedly as a female that I looked "hot"...and looking back at pictures, sure, I'd tap that. It's not like I began transition because I didn't like the way she looked, because I did...I just don't want "she" to be "me".

I actually have a harder time finding an attractive sense of style as a guy...though this is in part because the chesticles make me look barrel-chested.

Autopaleogynephilia.

But there's no paleo since I still look like a woman.

So I guess I really have the famed  ->-bleeped-<-, who knew that it's really attractive FTMs?

So if I were male, at least passably enough to live as a male and have straight relationships with women, maybe I would. Actually I'd probably think my current self was a lesbian, since I've got short hair and probably dress like a dyke.

Quote from: MeghanAndrews on November 04, 2009, 09:16:24 AM
I know I was not the type of guy I was looking for (too sensitive, emotional) and I'm not looking for that in a guy at all. I liked that I had ambition and drive, dressed nice and was very clean, those are nice attributes. I see old pictures and it's just someone else, it feels like a different life. I don't hate it or despise it, it is so far from any kind of reality I face now that I can look back with fondness. If I didn't have the life I have now, I know I could never do that Meghan

Quote from: FairyGirl on November 04, 2009, 11:14:55 AM
He was a nice enough guy, but was just so sad all the time and he always seemed a bit lost to be honest. Actually I guess what I feel is pity. My therapist has gotten me so averse to dis-integrating myself like this it is now hard to think of "him" as being separate from myself. He's just a sad chapter of my life that is thankfully now over.

I can identify with these.

That guy was OK and nice enough, but a bit lost.  Like he couldn't figure out why he didn't fit in.  I'd be friends with him, but I wouldn't date him.  (Well, maybe a pity date. )

I had to separate myself from him to become Kate.  Now I'm integrating him back in, but it still seems like a different life in a different time – sort of like when I was married the second time and would try to remember what I was like during the first marriage.

And I think as Kate I need someone who won't be bowled over by me.  I don't think the old me could have done it.  I am now one of those women he longed for but knew he couldn't handle.

(Now I'm getting all schizo.  Thanks, Renate. )

- Kate

I think I made a hot girl, I won't lie I'm also an awesome person, I'd totally date myself. Nobody loves me more than I love myself. *hugs self*

The really old pictures; possible seriel killer, definate ceriel addicct, case in point; Coco Pebbles with chocolate milk, Hershey's syrup, lots of chocolate marshmellows & chocolate chips.   

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I wanna know who else answered 'they look psycho' muwaha

She was a nice lookin gal..
I feel bad for killing her off..
She was sooo high maintenence though!!

Now I just confuse the hell out of people.. nobody wants me... whatever

I would not date my old self.. not really cause of looks but cause I was really depressed ..and asexual. bad combo for someone you wanna date..