I had a talk with my mom and shes tryna get me to focus on everything else in my life but this and well this is probably the biggest focus in my life for me right now. She keeps insisting I will never be anything close to a man and I really hope she's not right. I' sorry I know I've already talked about this but come on I looked it up on the internet at all the surgerys and things you can do and I already look like a guy so I really don't even need T but it would help. I just don't know what to do or what to believe. I mean I had a good day today for the first time in awhile I felt ok about everything. I was happy and excited even though things arent happening right away. I found myself randomly smiling because things were looking like they were gonna work out at least some what the way I'd like them to. I just wish that feeling would come back.

-JACK

P.S. Thanks everyone for all your help. You've all made my life so much easier and the thing going on in Portland I might actually be able to go to. =]

First steps first. Don't jump to end points. Go see a competent therapist, trained in the area and develop a plan with that person. You have time and so does your mum.

Dennis

Hi Jack...

Yeah... what Dennis said.

Take your time, get your plan and give your mum some space andtime to get used to what is happeneing.

Becky

Quote from: Jack on September 11, 2006, 10:21:58 PM
...and the thing going on in Portland I might actually be able to go to. =]

Jack, I'm just curious.  Do you live nearby?

Melissa

You know, for a long time the only reason I wasn't transitioning was because I believed a girl could not become a guy in any kind of convincing way...  Seeing some photos of transmen online and realizing how much is possible now makes me feel like I finally have a meaningful goal for *myself*, my actual inner being, and not just ones for my family or my career...  Knowing you have something to look forward to is great.  I'm working out for an hour every day now, and I never had the willpower needed to change my daily routine so much so quickly...  I just started one day and haven't stopped.  Of course it's only been a couple weeks, but I'm so set in my ways it was a personal record on the third day.

My boyfriend is all about me taking it slow, and I'm okay with doing that and giving him time to get used to everything, because I kind of feel more at peace since making my decision either way.  I'm young, I can pass as I am anyway, what's another year?  Gotta save up for it all anyway!

Nearby where? I live in Oregon...

I meant nearby me.  Oregon is nearby.  The reason I ask is because I think I've met you before in person, but once you hit 15 posts, I'll send you a PM. 

Melissa

What makes you think you've met me in person? How would you have? Where do you live?

The person I met was named Jack, lived in Oregon and I suspected they were FTM by their mannerisms and I thought would pass well.  So far you fit the description.  Do you have blonde hair?

I live in Vancouver, WA.

Melissa

Yeah I do have blonde hair...

I'll send you a PM, but you can't reply until you have 15 posts.

Melissa

Do you have any idea of how tall this person was?

Not exactly.  All I remember was compared to me (5'9"), this person was shorter (Maybe 5'2", but that's a complete guess).  I sent you specifics in the PM.

Melissa