Hello, my name is Adam, i go to college and curently live with my mum and future step dad.
I came to find this site when i was in need of some help.
Since a young age ive felt, "different", not as i should be but the way my parents bought me up was a way that made me embarased about telling them anything.
So i continued to live live but still did not feel happy with myself, still i could not tell my parents because i was way to embarased and scared of what they would say.
As i moved on in life, still young i realized that i was more femanine in how i acted, i always tried to hide it though. At this stage i was in about year 9 in school when i first got the idea that i wanted to do something about the way i feel and look. For someone so young i was quite mature in my own way.
Nearing the end of year 11, that idea that i wanted to change myself and my looks to fit the way i act became something of a personal goal, i had to do it but i had no one i could talk to about it as i didnt trust anyone enough. I could not tell my parents or any family because i was scared of what i might cause.
Now, im up this point in my life where i dont know how to acheive that goal, its not so much a goal now its more like something i have to do to become myself, as of lately ive been getting depressed because i cant do what ive wanted to do. Throughout my life ive wanted to do things such as makeup and go out with guys but where i am a guy, i cant do these things, the feeling that i dont know where to go to sort my problem out is horrible, all i want to do is be myself and i cant.
I joined in hopes of being able to tell other people who have gone through this experiance, i really just need a place where i can talk.
Thanks for reading *tearful smile*
