Hi my name is Alexia, or so I like to think, I knew I was feminine since I consciously knew about my self. My sister and mother provided all the feminine necessities, however without their knowledge. Growing up overseas in the backward, deeply religious atmosphere did nothing to help me embrace my sole. Once, walking back home after school I suddenly felt this overcoming feeling of FEM allover my body and mind, it was so strong and clear in my head, I suppose that is what people describe as religious experience( rather hellish one considering where I was). I felt like I never felt before and it was so strong and I knew, I then was a Woman. That feeling passed after that day, I suppose my logical brain made all the necessary arrangements to put it in its place, but I have been searching for that feeling ever since, I MISS IT. That day I new without question, without reason, without regret who I was, there was no hiding it, I was walking along over come with joy of being a woman. Now I am old, kids, wife, profession, responsibilities, still trying to grow up but in the creases of my mind I know it all is a lie. Don't get me wrong, I love them dearly and can not imagine world without them, however, I am not who appears before them. So I have made a decision not long ago, I am becoming ME. If the world shall end because of that, so be it. I am allowing my self to embrace HER, I do not know what's ahead. I am still in the closet, but this closet is far bigger than closets before, and I do not discard my clothing or girly things like I have done in the past, I AM HERE TO STAY!
