So I've been on T for almost four months and was under the impression that I still don't get read correctly as male by the general public etc.
When I'm out in public I'm constantly paranoid that someone will realise that beneath my male presentation, I have a large chest which although I bind, is still visible, or that when they speak to me my voice is very female. (It has dropped in the last month or so but it started out very high, so it's still, I think, in the female range)
I also almost exclusively use female toilets, unless I'm at work or familiar with the place and people there. After I came out as trans, I began to use male toilets and whilst obviously feeling a bit nervous, it was fine until I was in a bar's toilets one night and a guy struck up a conversation with me! Unless my gaydar was very off, he was straight and we were in a straight bar.
Now that was when I was very pre-T, so I panicked because not only did I not want to talk to him and out myself, I also went on the old "no guy will ever make eye contact with you, care what you're doing etc etc etc" that we are always told. Since then guys toilets seem like a place I should reserve until I'm totally unquestionable as male.
So.... a month ago I started a new job and it wasn't until yesterday when I was having a conversation about job histories and I mentioned I'd quit swimming teaching due to the number of gendered spaces... and the shocked response I got.... that I realised I'd just outed myself and the girl I was talking to had never questioned my gender at all and saw me as a regular guy....
Anyone else had a shock realisation like this???
Sorry for the pre-amble and then the ramble.
Post Merge: December 05, 2009, 10:42:23 AM
I should mention my girlfriend works in the same place, has done for almost two years. So I know a few select people know our relationship pretty well and know about my trans status... I assumed it was something that would be gossiped about and that everyone would know/guess...
