Not, to start a fight but lilacwoman is woman is one of the reasons why I have doubts.  I don't know why out of the blue these feelings came to me, but they have and I need to do something.  I don't know why I have these feelings when I am a typical man I guess.  The feelings are here to stay and they won't go away. 

Quote from: lauren3332 on December 07, 2009, 12:08:45 AM
Not, to start a fight but lilacwoman is woman is one of the reasons why I have doubts.  I don't know why out of the blue these feelings came to me, but they have and I need to do something.  I don't know why I have these feelings when I am a typical man I guess.  The feelings are here to stay and they won't go away.

I know how you feel. It doesn't seem to make sense, with all of these people who "always knew" and us who aren't really sure if that means we're delusional or just have a different problem since we don't seem intersexed either.

I guess time will tell, huh? So far it's only gotten worse for me.

The assumption some of us make when a person states something so definitive about the trans experience, is if we did not have the experience in the way it is said, then we feel defensive and hurt and like the person is "better" than us, or that the person thinks they are "better" than us.

Please just keep in mind that we are all defined by our OWN experiences and not by anyones else's.  There is no "right and wrong" in the trans experience.  But just let others feel the way they wish to about the subject, the fact that they feel that way does not affect ME at all nor is my feeling of less importance than theirs. 

There are many paths that lead to a single destination.

Quote from: lilacwoman on December 06, 2009, 01:37:52 PM
forget 'primary transsexualism' - if you are genuininely transsexual then its been with you since you first noticed other people had toys, clothes, decor different to yours.
I don't believe in 'secondary' or 'late onset' except in TGs.

I imagine that's a kick in the teeth for some of the late starters!

Quote from: Davina on December 04, 2009, 08:56:36 AM
Hi Everyone,

Did you all find that once you had decided that you wanted to transition, that you had become obsessed with surfing the net for as much info as possible on transexualism. Well, I have read just about everything on TS and realise my story is the same as thousands. I feel this way I'm preparing myself for transition and it also helps me feel closer to people like me.

I wouldn't necessarily say obsessed.

Although I did want to find out as much as I could and have put allot of study and effort into learning why I feel the way I do 

For me there is never any proper TS research. There is no research to find out how to change body fat re - distribution. For many of us HRT doesn't do the works to expectation and we usually have to resort to various surgery to impliment this (Boob job, liposuction to the waist etc).

Any stuff I see on the internet is misleading and not very truthful. They say HRT will do this, they say anti androgens will do that, finesteride will do this....and so on..

People believe all the hype they read on the internet about transitioning and they think are going to transform into a beauty queen.

Quote from: lilacwoman on December 06, 2009, 01:37:52 PM
forget 'primary transsexualism' - if you are genuininely transsexual then its been with you since you first noticed other people had toys, clothes, decor different to yours.
I don't believe in 'secondary' or 'late onset' except in TGs.

Your opinion really takes into account the vast array of people in the world and all their different situations. Like those who didn't have toys, and barely had enough clothing to keep themselves covered.
Some people - yes, even children - have more important things to worry about while they're growing up than to spend time wondering why they hate their bodies and can't reach orgasm. Why they hate their clothing and their name. Why they don't fit in with their peers.

Now, back on topic!

I wouldn't say I'm obsessed with research, because there really isn't much, and what there is is severely lacking in substance and conclusions. However, I still do find myself combing the internet, looking for other people's stories and experiences, hoping to find ways to make my own transition even a little bit easier. Hoping to find some guidance and idea of what to expect.