meant to be?

How many times did you pray or wished you be the one you was suppose to be, how did you feel when you woke up?


I prayed and prayed i would wake up as the girl i was meant to be but.... when i woke up it was another story... i felt like another day living as i cant express my TRUE  self.   

I can't even remember how many times I'd lie in bed, praying to a god I didn't even believe in to let me wake up a girl. Sometimes I would go to bed dressed in a full outfit, so that when I woke up I would feel like a girl, if even for only a split second (this was dangerous since I shared a room with my brother, but I didn't care).

The most vivid, most exciting, and most horrible memories I have are of the countless nights I lay in bed hoping I would change, thinking that maybe this was the day. Fortunately, the day has come. I wake up everyday now as a girl, in body and mind.

~Sarah

Not once, I don't buy that fairy tale. Not to sound cynical but that's how prayer usually works out. However the power in getting off your freaking knees and doing something about it is tremendous.

Quote from: Becca on January 03, 2010, 04:39:40 AMHowever the power in getting off your freaking knees and doing something about it is tremendous.

yeah.

Well, I wasn't taught to pray, and I don't know that I ever have, but I remember many times when I was little thinking "Maybe this is the night all that extra stuff will fall off!"  I figured my body would just heal itself.  After all, why not?  I was a girl.  I just had some extra stuff that made people think I was a boy.  Why wouldn't my healthy little body shed the junk, kind of like when a scab falls off or your skin pushes a splinter out?

I think in puberty I finally realized I was stuck with that stuff and needed to try to make the best of a bad situation.

How many times did I hope?  How many nights are there between age 3 or 4 and age 13?  (Plus a few extras after that. )

- Kate

Every morning since I was 14 years old.

Great way to start your days ha?

I was always taught ora et labora, that one prayed, but one also worked.  The lord helps those what helps themselves and all that.

I spend every waking hour wishing I had the right parts. I know I am a woman but continue to live with natures mistake. HRT has helped as I now dream as a woman but I am always very disappointed when I wake up. Fortunately this problem will be fixed in the fairly near future.

Pam

Quote from: RoseBlossom on January 03, 2010, 04:26:20 AMI prayed and prayed i would wake up as the girl i was meant to be...

Oh me too, me too. Now that you mention it, it's probably the #1 reason I lost my faith. Great, now I'm crying, lol... I must be onto something there.

Still though, $20,000, some morphine and a skilled surgeon's knife, and tada! Woke up as a girl finally. Sometimes prayers need a little "nudge"

Quote from: SarahR on January 03, 2010, 04:38:20 AM
I can't even remember how many times I'd lie in bed, praying to a god I didn't even believe in to let me wake up a girl. Sometimes I would go to bed dressed in a full outfit, so that when I woke up I would feel like a girl, if even for only a split second (this was dangerous since I shared a room with my brother, but I didn't care).

The most vivid, most exciting, and most horrible memories I have are of the countless nights I lay in bed hoping I would change, thinking that maybe this was the day. Fortunately, the day has come. I wake up everyday now as a girl, in body and mind.

~Sarah

Wow, I could have written that. (except for the last part  at least for now)  Also every single birthday wish - those years when I had a cake at least - from 10 years old until around 20.  I knew it wouldn't happen the way I wished, but it made me feel so much better to hope.  I'm really working towards the end goal now and I can't wait.

Every single night for twenty five years.   Now I'm doing something about it

Every day of my life, until I woke up one day and realized that I was a woman.  Granted I have some of the wrong plumbing, but that can be repaired in due time.

How I pray each night for another day to enjoy life as a woman.


Janet

Oh my... I did A TON of that in my early and mid teenage years. I remember actually believing it would happen, too...

The only reason I really stopped was because I was an atheist for a while. Even though I'm not anymore, I've learned that if God is really up there, he isn't going to do that for me.

Still do it sometimes. I used to stay up till 11:11 and then go to sleep wishing. Never happened. :\

Once or twice, many years ago I actually believed if I really put my mind to it... but to no avail.
I then "found" my true self and wake up every morning "knowing" I'm Evie. I just look through the male mask I'm now in and say "good morning Evie, another beautiful day for you..."
The mind is a powerful thing, and during my upcoming transition, I need to have a strong one.
My mantra below my avatar, "Become who you are" guides me, and helps me believe.

Evie

Yup, all my life. Prayed, wished, dreamed about it 

Waking up with the wrong parts is parts has long been a big disappointment 

I use to think maybe i was already a girl.. but i was the only one that seen me as a boy?

Idk it's crazy how many scenarios i came up with!

I have to give Janet all the credit for what I'm about to say. I too have to agree with wverything she just mentioned . I had to quit hormones sometime back due to a couple of medical conditions I have . Still, I dress and I go out in public as female as I can . I get "outted " from time to time , I guess i'll never get completely past that . I do the best that I can with what I have at hand , thats all I can realisticly do ! Ellen Shaver

I did this many many times when I was very very young.

Now it's coming to fruition... slowly but getting there

I'm not really religious (I don't really know what I believe in yet), but I hoped and prayed tons that I would wake up a boy, or that I'd wake up from the horrible nightmare, but nothing ever happened.