I just want to start crying at the moment, everything in my life has always fallen into place if it has been right, ive never really had to think about it and everything has just "worked" (except for me being sick, witch has now been fixed) Now the only thing is GID nothing had really fallen into place, every time i want to do somthing about it somthing then comes out that stops me and puts me back to square 1.   Im ment to be starting a course very soon, but it's not really want i want to do, I want to go back to school and focus on getting GID delt with. But it just never seems to work. (btw i would be going into year 11, so i still want to finsh year 12 and stuff and then maybe university)
Everything has just gorne weird now, im so lost..... Just fell like crying.   

Sorry for the rant.

Yeah, I kinda feel that way now too.  Generally, these down periods are followed by something better.  Maybe they stimulate thought and reflection which lead to action and improvement?

If everyday was paradise, I'd get bored!

Well, it's okay to cry.
I'd maybe also suggest taking one thing at a time.  It sounds like you're already stressed out enough, so maybe just set a small goal for yourself: if you're trying to finish up the school year, think about setting up a therapy appointment when school's over, or something.  That way you're doing something about your problem, and not just putting it off, but you're not necessarily overwhelming yourself by trying to do too much all at once. 

And cry whenever you need to.  There's nothing wrong with that.  *hugs*

Let your emotions out. Keeping them inside is quite tiring, and stressful. Trust me, I kept all emotions other than 'happiness' to myself, and I have stewed in them for the last 15+ years via stoicism, and it has hollowed me with time. I find this a very touching thread, and we can all sympathize. In fact, I am going to cry now...

That is a prerogative that all Transpeople share, regardless of their direction.  Us girls are expected to cry, and we allow the boys to cry too.  Because it is a great release for the soul.

Cry away.


Janet

I completely understand what you mean.  When I was in your place ten years ago I was completely overwhelmed.  Even more than now.  One thing that I have learned is that you have to set small goals otherwise you will snap back to square one.

On a related note, I freaked my friends out the other day when I had an emotional breakdown of sorts. Out of nowhere, i just started crying. At first I didn't even realize it until one of my friends pointed out that I had a tear running down my cheek. I was so embarrassed, I ran to the bathroom and I just started crying more and more. It was weird and uncomfortable. For like five minutes, I just cried.

I find it to be very emotionally stabilizing. There is a reason humans have the ability to cry, and it's not good to always hold it in. Sometimes you just have to, no explanation or embarrassment necessary.

I find I cry a lot with some songs on the radio. TV shows often do the same, but I try to stay way from TV, largely for that reason.

Crying is good for the most part, and I think that entire 'boys don't cry' thing has been overstated, and at the very least has been replaced by the far more sensible "there is no crying in baseball," which is a cross-gender edict.  So that whole 'set and setting' thing comes into play.  I've spent a lot of time in a place where we directly and deliberately play on people's emotions.  And the people who are good at it, are very good at it.  I dare you to watch Beaches and not cry at the end - its pretty much designed exactly that way.  I'm not even going to go near Schindler's List, if you can't cry to that, you're probably dead.

Anyone been watching the pictures from Hati?  And that does not break your heart?  And it does not require all that ugly, sheer beauty can do it too.

I used to cry once a year when I lectured about Vietnam.  At the end of that lecture I'd read (because I think it's important for college educated persons to know what the impact of their decisions can be) from a book called Shrapnel in the Heart. It contains letters and remembrances left behind at the Vietnam War Memorial.  The letters from the wives who would never see their husbands and parents who would never see their child, those got to the girls, you could see the boys holding back.  Then the letter from the kid who would never know her dad - almost there.  Then the letters - the ones that worked on the guys, the ones from the people who came back to their buddies they had to leave in the field - that got them, because in those letters they could see themselves.

But sometimes you have to cry for the sheer awesomeness of how good people can be, and that's OK too.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ngzyhnkT_jY&feature=related#
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jocw-oD2pgo&NR=1#
Aww, maybe there is a bit of room for crying, even in baseball.