What came to mind after you woke up from anesthesia?

Thank God it's all over and I'm now the way I should be.

I cried because I realised that I'd reached something that not so many people can.  I was free & I'll be eternally thankful.

Quote from: Valentina on January 23, 2010, 08:09:26 PM
What were your first thoughts after you realised you had had GRS?

I'm whole.  I'm female.

Quote from: Valentina on January 23, 2010, 08:09:26 PM
What came to mind after you woke up from anesthesia?

An incredible feeling of inner peace. 

It was 1974, SRS had always been a total impossibility. When I woke up, I just felt total peace and went right back to sleep. There was no thought as such

"Gaw! I need more pain meds! Nurse! Drugs, please! Lots of them!" LOL

Uh, and yeah, other than that pretty awesome and happy.

Where's the damn button for the morphine pump?

OH OUCH!!!! Left heel where the left leg was in the sturup was PAINFUL.  Far more so then the SRS or BA.  The nurse checked on it and I guess I got a bit more meds as the next time I woke up I was in my room.  But Yes It was a grand feeling to be me.

Beni

I don't mean to speak for the OP but I think she wasn't talking about physical pain but the emotional aspects of GRS.   Kind of weird that some of you felt pain after you woke up too.  I didn't feel pain immediately after I woke up but almost 8 hours later when the effects of anesthesia had completely disappeared.  Anyway, with everything considered, the physical pain I felt after GRS was nothing compared to the pain I had to endure for years as a girl with a penis.

So what did it feel (emotionally speaking) like when I woke up?  It felt like 500 kilos had been lifted from my chest.  I felt blessed to finally be the woman I'd always been on the inside.  It felt like I was running in a green meadow free, without any limitations whatsoever.  That's what it felt like.

As I awoke from the effects of the anesthesia, my mind was still foggy and I tried to figure out where I was.

Then I realized I was in a hospital.

Then I remembered I came in for a procedure.

Then I remembered that the procedure was for SRS.

Then deep within my brain I FELT a switch flip from male -> Female.

And I realized that I no longer was in transition.

Then I pressed the morphine button about six of seven times.

I'm sure my smile never left my face.

-Sandy (I'm still smiling)

Quote from: Jeannette on January 25, 2010, 02:49:08 PM
  I felt blessed to finally be the woman I'd always been on the inside.  It felt like I was running in a green meadow free, without any limitations whatsoever.  That's what it felt like.

That's beautiful. 

Quote from: Jeannette on January 25, 2010, 02:49:08 PMIt felt like I was running in a green meadow free, without any limitations whatsoever.  That's what it felt like.

Nicely put! I have often likened it to waking up knowing that I had been liberated from Auschwitz, gone from being one step from the gas chamber to being FREE.

When I awoke from the anesthesia, it was the time span that was confusing, I remember going into the theatre, then coming back out, seemed only like 5mins, when it was actually over 5hours, I was kinda like ''where are they taking me'' it was all a haze, then I felt pain and packing down there, I remember my Dad and saying to him ''am I done, is it over'' I'II always remember his reply to this day ''Daddy's princess girl is now complete'' it was like omg I really am now a complete woman, all woman.
Did any of you feel the time period strange.
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Quote from: pretty pauline on January 26, 2010, 04:51:41 PM
When I awoke from the anesthesia, it was the time span that was confusing, I remember going into the theatre, then coming back out, seemed only like 5mins, when it was actually over 5hours, I was kinda like ''where are they taking me'' it was all a haze, then I felt pain and packing down there, I remember my Dad and saying to him ''am I done, is it over'' I'II always remember his reply to this day ''Daddy's princess girl is now complete'' it was like omg I really am now a complete woman, all woman.
Did any of you feel the time period strange.
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wonderful daddy you have!

I woke up from my surgery the second time and I looked down and sensed I was finally free of the burden that had haunted me for so long, what I saw looked and felt natural and as I drifted back of to sleep, I felt a calmness descend all over me that I had never known before.

Kind Regards
Sarah B

Be who you want to be.

Quote from: pretty pauline on January 26, 2010, 04:51:41 PM
Did any of you feel the time period strange.

It wasn't the time period of surgery that was strange. I was only disoriented for a few seconds but the next 24 hours were very disjointed. It was such a gawd-awful relief to have that behind me that I just slept SO comfortably and so peacefully, only waking up now and then to reposition or when someone was checking on me. That is probably why I have no memory of pain and never took any pain meds - I had never slept with such peace before.

Quote from: pretty pauline on January 26, 2010, 04:51:41 PM
I'II always remember his reply to this day ''Daddy's princess girl is now complete''

OMG, what a wonderful father you have, that moment is absolutely priceless.

Kind Regards
Sarah B

Be who you want to be.

one word: independence.

Quote from: Sarah B on January 28, 2010, 06:40:11 AM
OMG, what a wonderful father you have, that moment is absolutely priceless.

Kind Regards
Sarah B

Be who you want to be.

My Father wasn't always supportive but finally excepted my transition because it made my Mother so happy, after rearing ''4sons'' my Mother was excited at gaining a daughter.
But back to the title of this thread, when I did wake up it was all sureal and that time span, 5hours seeming only 5mins, I also had a trach shave same time as my GRS, I use to have a very prominent adam's apple which I simply hated, I was glad to be rid of that, I was a little sore and hoarse from the trach shave which was extensive.
I did appreciate my Father's first words to me after my operation, the moment was absolutely priceless, to my Mother and Father at the time I was their very special girl, thats what they tolded me, it did ease the pain.
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Absolute peace & that marvelous feeling that everything was over & that I had made it alive & well.  It was all worth it after all.