So as the signature says I'm bigendered. I've been back and forth with the idea of going on low dose T so that my inner chemistry (at least..) can match my sense of self.

I've gone back and forth and forth and back on this idea over the course of the last month, perhaps longer than that. Ok ok...closer to four months.

Yesterday I applied my first dose of T (via gel form). I finally hit the wall where a test run became necisarry for sanity. Today was my second dose and....this morning I felt so stinking good. Just...happy. I crashed around 1:30 in the afternoon and have felt like crap since. I don't believe the T is to blame for that...I suffer from migraines and I think the stress of "should I...or shouldn't I...should I!?" finally caught up with me now that I've decided. So...I'm breathing deep, calming down and relaxing tonight. Just thought I'd let folks know.

Does this mean I'm a confirmed FtM now? I don't think so. Still me. Same person I was yesterday. Though it does seem that my body responds well to testosterone. So far. And that's all that means.

If it calms your mind and helps to eliminate doubt as E does for me then go with it. Just be carefull with your health. You will always be you.

You're the same person regardless.

But hopefully you can sort out your ambiguous feeling though. You migraines will only get worse until you do, whatever you do.

Can you possibly sit down and write out a list of reasons for doing this and a list for not doing it?

That may help to get your thoughts under some control. You could even post the list here. I'm sure many will love to help you.

I am Sevans spouse so anything I say about her is suspect..
The last couple days have been rather nice with a smiling and happy mate.
I dont know if its the T or getting yourself over the fear of self discovery.

Hi..
  For many & the younger you are the changes will be some what stressful . & depending on the dose . headaches dont help at all . or migrains any meds in the body will up set your hormonal balance till your body settels down your resepters take a while to sort it out
  all the best    tho nice you have a mate to help you      youll get there,

     hugs

    ...noeleena...