Welcome back to Susan's, Brie.

Be sure to look under the Announcements heading. There you will find the rules we live by in this little world of ours: "Site Terms of Service and Rules to Live By", "Standard Terms and Definitions", and "Post Ranks". Look through the other stuff there, too.
It is often difficult to allow ourselves to become who we really are. Transition can be a very difficult path. Don't envy those who've managed it; aspire to make it too. If it is something you need for you, then do it for you. (Oops. Sorry about the unasked-for advice.

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Welcome back and happy exploring.

- Kate