Hey, so I've been wearing womens clothes, and am comfortable in it now, just switching between, and I feel like I've found my style, and gone beyond gender kind of, but I still feel weird in this body, and still no one really understands, or takes me seriously, I feel like they think its part of something else, like my religion or something, and not that I am a 'real' woman, but like its a ritual and I want to step away from that, plus just for my own self, I mean I love my body, and this past year or so has been totally about self acceptance, but I just don't like having this barrier, between what feels like my true self, everytime I'm naked, or feel uncomfortable trying to pass, or wondering if others think that I pass... its just like I accept my body, but I feel like this is something I should do in this life, and not in another one, I'm sure you guys understand this feeling. I don't know I just feel like this is really the time to start taking this to the next level finally I'm deciding to start hormones, after staying totally natural for so long, and I was wondering what are good kinds to take/where to get them? Also are there any herbs that have equal effect or almost equal? either as t-blockers, or for estrogen.

also, around how much does a srs surgery usually cost?

I know I should probably talk to a doctor, I will do that too..

you should probably talk to a doctor first. No one here is going to tell you it's wise do this on your own. Your doctor can prescribe for you the best treatment for you. You can go the traditional way of talking to a gender therapist first and receiving a recommendation letter for HRT, or try talking directly to a medical doctor. I don't know about herbs, except I've heard they aren't all that effective.

Expect SRS to cost in the neighborhood of $15,000 to $20,000 USD, even more depending on the surgeon.

Ditto what FairyGirl said.  DIY HRT is dangerous.  As for the SRS it depends on where you have it done.  I have seen anything from $6800 USD ( Thailand ) to $20,000 USD.  And then you have to take in the plane fare to get there and any lodging that might be need.

oh okay,