Hi Girls,

This is my first post here. I might do an introduction when I have the time, but I have a question for other pre-op MTF's and also post-op MTF's. I am pre-op, on hormones and all that jazz  and the longer I used them, the more affinity for men arose in me, especially in my dreams. Does anyone else had this?

Okay, now I had those dreams quite a bit, and finally decided to do something with it. See it as a test of some kind. I never felt gay, or something like that, but a month ago I put on my suede shoes and went to a gay bar for some enjoyment. Okay, this is very personal, but I like to see if others had the same feeling to meet a man. Obviously, I'm not passable yet, so I can't go to a straight bar and hit some men  So I tried it out in a gay bar. Well, I found most men unattractive, but there was one guy that was the star of the club so to say, who came to me! he was very gorgeous (as in model like) and we started chatting.

After a long chat I told him that I was trans, but that didn't bother him whatsoever. So I told him I like him, so next of we went for a walk, and eventually landed at his home.

This was the first time I really felt like a woman! He was nice, and affectionate, passionate and funny as well. Now we did have some romantic episodes (which i won't go into detail for your pleasure) But oh Girls, it really felt so good to finally meet a guy and getting close a guy, even if HE was gay. Somehow it didn't bother me, and it didn't bother him as well.

Now, some would say: Then your gay! Nope. I'm probably BI-sexual, but since I feel more female than male, I can't possibly gay right? But, I did had to get used to it. When I got home I felt depressed, more in the sense of; Why did I do this? He is gay, and likes my male body, he doesn't see me as a girl? *sigh* But I did want to know what it was like with a guy, and that I did accomplish........

Anyway, did anyone else had such experience? anyone feel to share a story? and of course if you have questions for me, let me know. 

Kiss, Marian.

Really nice experience . I too have such issues . I am a cross dresser and am straight but when i wear female clothes n get exited i start finding some guys bit attractive. I dont know why this happens .   

I too have the same feelings as Anisha when dressed. The dressing does not excite me sexually but I do have thoughts of what it would be lilke to be a woman in all ways.

you're only gay to the bigots and fools who refuse to accept the scientific and visual evidence that we are females trapped in male bodies...or put it another way...if overnight you got FFF, voice training and genitals switched to female would anyone still see you as gay or say you were gay...yet it's only those bits of you...by weight 5%?, by skin area 5%, by vocal chord size 5% that actually makes you male...all the rest of us have those same 5% but thats all the non-believers see.

i failed to see how you are Gay, your a woman, it is society or more to the point some small minority views that need to accept you are a woman.

Pre or post op make no difference what so ever

Good for you, Marian.  There is nothing wrong with being with a guy.  That is what a lot of women like to do, me included.

If I kind of have a boyfriend on-line.  And Yes he knows and doesn't care.

Kudos to ya marian! I wish I'd had that kind of courage to explore preoperatively like that. 

Way WAY back, even before 'transition' and when nobody ever heard of 'transsexual', Gay guys simply weren't interested .... like "Well I don't care WHAT you say sweetie, you're A GIRL and I am not into girls!"

Straight men? OH YEA! But not until after SRS. (Then watch them run if the begin to suspect you aren't a 100% factory original female!)

Just be careful, gay bars aren't always the safest place to hook up with people, especially those who are charismatic and charming.

I've had a few boyfriends and only one of them was what I consider reasonable in terms of how often they wanted sex.

From what I've gathered gay guys have higher sex drives than most straights. It's just a little much for me at times.

But yeah, good for you. I hope you find happiness and it all works out.