I am so worried that my family is going to take a negative reaction when I change my whole look; think blonde hair, blue eyes, and bright clothes. It would be the complete opposite of what  I am right now.

But I want to do it, and I am on a diet and until I reach the goal weight I won't do it till then. But I been wanting to do it for so long.... I just want to take the plunge.

It's just so much fear, that they would reject me even if I do it because it be consider "gay".

Are you worried about how your family will react -- or how you will react to their reaction?  What's the worst that could happen?

"you're a ->-bleeped-<-!", that's the worst. But I plan to come out a little shortly before then.... And I will react, "I am living my life, it's my body!"  Because bleaching my hair would be really gay to do in my house...

I will react confidently because that's the way I am, but I would be hurt if they reject me.

I guess maybe you have to ask yourself if it's something you're going to do eventually anyway, and if so, is there a benefit to waiting?  And I think you have to forget about the 'gay' thing.  If it's not true, then it might hurt initially, but it's who's saying it that hurts, not what's being said.

In recent years when I came out to family )OK no Mum & Dad anymore.) The only comment I got about clothes was 'It's not fair I can't walk in heels' 'Nice skirt where did you get it from?' My brothers in law said nothing and talked about sport between themselves, just like they always have No one has said anything about Gay.
Good luck I hope it goes well

Hugs
Cindy

well im not going to cross dress and stuff, since i kind of don't want too but i thought i was a transsexual for a long time (all last year), but I kind of lost that feeling now. I can't describe it besides that.

I just want to be the most attractive male version of myself, and I always had a deep desire to be blonde. Golden blonde like the sun.

I wish being gay wasn't such a bad thing in my family, since I am afraid of everyone's reactions. It's not like I will lose anything though. I just want to be free.