I have a strange question to ask, since this forum deals with psychology more than my other favorite forums, I guess this would be the place. Well I have a great desire to be this one person in my head, and I let this person be expose sometimes. It's like a drunk party girl I guess... personality wise... then I have this angry guy in me.

I am mostly in the neutral stage, where I am nice, but I am not overly nice but just nice. This is at work, and people worship the ground I walk on.

At school I am neutral, but I lack all qualities of personalities because I do not want to expose myself in case my brother sees me differently, which it goes to the family. At home I am either angry or just like "I am grander than you all", hard to explain but I only talk about myself.

But this drunk girl stage was expose a little at school, which I didn't want to happen much. This guy slapped my butt with a yard stick, and he was like smiling at me, and all, and I guess my voice changed with him, it just became more "smooth" I guess, like I was drunk. He was even kind of far from me, so I have no idea why he did that.

Then this guy was like offering help to lift something at work (I could pick it up... guys don't pick things up for you, ya know), and then he was like putting his hand on my shoulder when talking to me. And I even made a point to call this woman hot to him, I do that to guys a lot to make sure they get the memo I am not gay. And the math teacher I really hated last semester was like 3 inches to my face and I kind of back up from him cause he was like this close, and giving me more extra credit points for him. I don't even know why he likes me all of a sudden... because he was smiling at me intently like staring into my eyes.

I don't get it, but I like it. But I don't get it. I can't turn "straight" guys gay for me, and I am not even attracted to these guys.

But if I tweak into the drunk girl personality could that be the reason??? I did it a lot with this one dude, and now he's like calling my name in the hallways but in a nice way. My hair is longer (to my shoulders now), could that be it? I am also thinner.... but I am not a girl physically... these are straight guys. What's the deal?

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Post Merge: March 09, 2010, 03:01:34 PM

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oh i just realize i post this in the wrong area of the board. i meant to put this in general

Hi Megan.  I moved the topic to General Discussions.

It sounds like you can be very seductive (drunk party girl mode).  I would be wary of sending those signals, but then I am considerably older and can be very conventional.  It just sounds to me like things could get out of hand very quickly.

I found that rather than trying to fit myself into some other personality becoming myself was key.  I acted differently with different people, but gradually I found the real me and now am pretty much the same with everyone.

Who do you want to be?

- Kate

I think perhaps you are over analysing this a bit. I agree with K8: You are you, just be yourself. Do you feel inclined to be more extroverted and are just holding yourself back? Or is being the "party girl" feel like you are pretending?

I am sure the attention is nice, but you certainly don't want to attract people with a personality that is false or untrue to yourself. If you did then you'd have to keep up this persona even after you got to know them. I think this is one of the big reasons relationships both platonic and romantic break down...

I know it isn't this simple in practice as society does put constraints on people, and will naturally prevent people from being exactly who they want to be. So one must show a little restraint in the name of prudence if nothing else, but I feel we should strive to be as true to ourselves as is practical.

I'm a bit older also and don't really fit the party girl scene. But I would like to find that special someone to play snuggle bunnies with 

But sometimes these hormones make me feel like a teen age girl in heat looking for someone to play curious jungle monkeys with 

Oooooh what to do 

I think many people have personality quirks which differ depending on the situation. I also think that we give subtle signals that are read by others and maybe this is more of what is happening for you. Just my opinion tho.


Virginia,

I like "curious jungle monkeys". Can I play?