I've been under a reasonable amount of stress recently,
Playing on this my mind keeps worrying about things and I've had terrible dreams every time I goto sleep. Talking about them makes me feel alittle better... I don't suppose anyone has any suggestions for easing them? I mean I know they will go away when the stress dose but that won't be for 3 weeks yet. *Sigh* : (
Three nights ago I was awoken by a bad dream involving my face, bits of it would become exceedingly fragile and fall off. First my teeth started falling out, then my nose broke my ears fell off then my jaw snapped off and I couldn't speak One of my eyes fell out leaving me half blind before my nose snapped off and my other eye fell out I was blind but I could still feel my head disintegrating I couldn't find my way home anymore and everyone was terrified by my appearance and ran away so I was alone and cold and rapidly going deaf aswell. I reached up only to touch what felt like my brain, not wanting to live anymore I plunged my fingers into my own brain to kill myself.
My next nightmare my best friend turned and tried to umm... sexually assault me I resisted and he responded by attacking me with scissors first humiliating me cutting my hair off nipples off before slashing my face up before stabbing me in the neck and leaving me to die, I slowly asphyxiated to death. I woke up crying because I really love that person and I felt heartbroken : (
And tonight I was awoken by yet another nightmare Big on the dysphoria this one, basically ugly grubs and giant carpenter ants began to "bud" out of my flesh. It was a slow process starting on my hand, the insects were alive as they were budding out and partially fused with me, And the ants were terrible they would bud on my body and be alive and biting with these huge muscular jaws if I killed them they would fuse with my body cause an ulcer. eventually they stop in a spot but all that was left was painful ulcerated skin and bone and they would out from somewhere else it moved across my body as a wave. when they started to come out of my eyelids and the inside of my mouth and throat I could feel myself starting to asphyxiate again I threw myself infront of a train to spare myself the horror.
*Sigh* I feel abit better at least now. Any funny Freudian interpretations of my dreams? XD