Today started off one of those days, you know, the ones where you want to crawl under a rock and rot for a while...... I had to be at work early and was stepped again by QA, stepped for showing up 2min late for my shift, and I didnt have any change for the vending machines at all LoL...
End of work day, things continue to go wrong but I'll leave that at that. I finaly made it home, ended up takeing a very short impromptu nap, wakeing up late and haveing to rush to load up.... We had a show tonight....
Okay, I know this sounds like a rant but heres where things start to pick up
I showed up alittle late for loadup, but the guys were kind enough to have broken my kit down and even had it outside ready to load the moment I showed up. They helped me load (both of these are things they allmost never do) Allright, Im in drab at this point, I was haveing such a bad day I was going to skip the plan of comeing out at a show again... My band was haveing none of that from me this night...
They sent me home to change into something alittle more show appropriate, and sence we were playing with Goth/Industrial bands tonight I figured I could go all out punk/goth and get away with it LoL. Black eyeliner, smokey eyes, the works. a fashion corsett and tight black jeans, sheer top so I didnt seem overboard...... okay, yeah, enough of that
When I pulled up I was starting to feel the anxiety kick in, These were people who know me, some of them are or were friends of mine at some point or another... there was no way I was going to pass, no way I was going to make it out alive, (and all those other dreadful thoughts that run through your head)
I was about to pull out when I noticed an obvious dragqueen walk in... noone payed her any mind, noone gave her an odd look... This isnt the normal punk crowd we play for but the gothic sceen we were welcomed into years ago when we first got started... I sat in my car for a while longer giveing myself a chance to calm down. (I beat my band to the show btw) Finaly I grabbed my bag, stepped out of my car and walked thorugh the door... I wasnt even carded after I said I was playing (Thank God)...
I was recognised by 3 people for sure, maby a few others out of the 40 I knew, from outside it looked like it was going to be a bunk show again but 200 people had shown up... Comment from those 3 people, they wernt supprised, and for the first time sence theyve known me I looked happy...
It was amazeing, I wasnt stared at, atleast not in a bad way. <The drag queen I think was doing a good job diverting attention from me> I recieved more compliments on my outfit than I could count... I was hit on *That is an amazeing feeling for me at this point*.... I mean, it was a really awsome night, and we hadnt even played yet....
The first band up had a female drummer, second band up had a female bass player and keyboardist, and ofcourse my band had me on the drums
I heard allot of comments about "chick bands and drummers" though out the night....
The thing I feared the most didnt happen, my worries about being blackballed, outed, and worse never came to pass.... We played the best show so far this year and Im pretty sure our fanbase has expanded. (We actualy sold merch and ran out of bumper stickers)
I guess full time started tonight rather than monday morning.... I dont think I can ever go back after this
Id like to thank everyone who made this possable, those who gave me a shoulder to cry on, those who listened when I needed to vent the most, those who gave there support through thick and thin, and to everyone here on susans whom without Id probably still be miserable and pathless
With all my love
******* Ambrosine **** *Hugs*
Posted on: October 15, 2006, 04:39:27 AM
Sorry, I dont have any pics... noone remembered to bring a camara. Im going to talk to the other bands that played and see if maby they took some LoL
