Today is the prep day before my surgery tommorrow. I am not sure whether I will be the morning one or the afternoon one. Right now it's 1:45pm here, so in about 2 hours I start the prep. Yay for me...not. It involves an enema at 4pm. I hear that's fun. I believe I will be seeing the doc sometime around 6 or 7. Then around 7 I have another enema after I go to the hospital next door. After that I will be given a sleeping pill and will [hopefully] knock out. When I wake up tommorrow I step into the final hours with the baggage below. When I come out of surgery, I will have more baggage then I left behind, lol.
That's the process for the next 24 hours. How I feel right now is foggy. My mind is literrally unable to comprehend it right now. These past few days here have gone fast and slow. I haven't really had any feelings one way or another, it's like I'm a passenger in my body as it goes through the motions. I've only had tiny spouts of emotion. Thoughts creep into my mind now and again and I feel a twinge of happiness. Then my mind goes blank.
I've been asking the other girls who have already had theirs done all sorts of questions. What does it feel like? What sort of pain is there? How do you feel emotionally? I've gotten a lot of different answers, but a good overall estimate of what to expect.
I got my supply of dilators today. There are four of them in a cloth pouch. They are bigger than I expected. They have a slight curve near the end. I can't imagine what it'll feel like first inserting them. One of the girls here just started dilation today, needless to say she was exstatic afterwards. She was so happy. I felt some emotion then.
I'm not sure how long it'll be until I'm able to post another update. I leave the hospital on Thursday, but I will try to give another update before then of possible. Until then, farewell and I'll see you all on the other side
~Sarah
(By the way, my next update will likely be in the post-op life forum
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