Quote from: phx_rising on March 25, 2010, 08:13:43 PM
Just to be clear though...my top surgery is a breast reduction. I'm going from DDD to (hopefully) B.

Ah, O.K. I can't imagine having a chest that big. How you guys handle that I can never imagine.

i'm a 40 DD and i would love to be a B cup again- i vaguely remember those days in my twenties. Now i just want to ' ave em off'

Well the thing is, is that I hate my boobs.
HATEHATEHATEHATEHAETTETETEHATEHATEH them.

Obviously, I don't like them very much.

So I've been using Ace Bandages lately;
(I know, I know, I'm not supposed to use them)
But only until I order my binder from Underworks.

I just think that they are there for no reason,
i hate how they look,
i hate how they feel,
and I HATE having to wear a shirt 24/7.

I can't wait till chest surgery, I'm burning all my T-Shirts, lol.

when i first started binding, (with ace bandages might i add), i would rap it around as tight as possible.
i would do this if i was going out, and i started doing it even when i was just as home. like you, it was a nice feeling knowing that they were just out of the way.

then, i started wearing it to bed. i didnt like waking up, and physically being able to feel them, or see them. and yes. i KNOW this comes with serious health risks.

it started to bruise my back, and sides. and the back pains i got were indescribable.

I'm sadly unable to bind. I've tried many, many times. The best I can do is wear bras that help minimize things a bit. I have 36DDDD (yes, four Ds) breasts that are very 'solid' and do not compress well. They don't really sag much at all, I guess that is an upside? They get in my way and have gotten in my way since age 13.

My therapist wondered the other day if I wanted a breast reduction. I told her that I've considered one for many years, but during my ultra-female denial phase I was terrified of losing them since they had come to define me. And once I got past that phase, I mostly wasn't keen on the idea of going from big breasts to small breasts since I'd still have breasts. Until recently I had no idea FtM type top surgery was even an option. When I discovered that, I was jawdropped and I've started to save up for it.

I mean, imagine, not being a slave to my tits? A dream come true!

i wish you all the best M.Grimm