Quote from: K8 on April 03, 2010, 11:44:33 AM
OK, we shall all meditate:  This will happen, this will happen, this will happen (and please please promise me that it is irreverible. )

- Kate

I keep saying it myself.

Quote from: FairyGirl on April 02, 2010, 10:06:08 PM
well one of those would be me lol

Sarah I am also looking forward to not worrying about those things you mentioned. Plus I know it must be a tremendous relief just to be past it, finally. I keep worrying something at the last minute is going to prevent it! There's another thing you don't have to worry about anymore. Congrats and big hugs! You go girl!

One of my concerns as well.  Suzanne from Brassards office said she would send me a confirmation letter regarding my surgery--I'm still waiting on that one.  I really don't want to call there in August to hear "we don't have you scheduled for Sept 15".

Quote from: Valeriedances on April 04, 2010, 10:08:28 AM
I've found that I have developed a degree of paranoia and am more and more protective as I think about safety ...of something happening that will prevent the surgery. I have declined invitations to go out with friends, to travel to Miami for an event, or to go out on the road except as needed for fear of an accident. I was originally planning on staying with my girl friend's family in Montreal at their home, but after hearing that a male in the family doesn't approve of the surgery, I have decided to stay at a hotel. The long road trip there would be a great opportunity to stop and visit some museums or to take a scenic route, but again, my paranoia tells me to check in at the hotel nearby and sit until the date arrives to check in. So that is what I am going to do ...go, sit, disengage brain (except for reading/writing/eating), and wait for my time :-) I don't think i can focus on anything else besides.

And hopefully, once you are there, you will post your experience as eloquently as Sarah has 

Quote from: Valeriedances on April 04, 2010, 10:08:28 AM
I've found that I have developed a degree of paranoia and am more and more protective as I think about safety ...of something happening that will prevent the surgery. I have declined invitations to go out with friends, to travel to Miami for an event, or to go out on the road except as needed for fear of an accident. I was originally planning on staying with my girl friend's family in Montreal at their home, but after hearing that a male in the family doesn't approve of the surgery, I have decided to stay at a hotel. The long road trip there would be a great opportunity to stop and visit some museums or to take a scenic route, but again, my paranoia tells me to check in at the hotel nearby and sit until the date arrives to check in. So that is what I am going to do ...go, sit, disengage brain (except for reading/writing/eating), and wait for my time :-) I don't think i can focus on anything else besides.

Don't worry Valerie you are perfectly normal in your fears.

On my first SRS in 84 I went in on a short notice cancellation so I literally only knew I was going in the night before. No time for panic then!

For my revision surgery - I decided to use public transport so my family would not be inconvenienced. I thought, (wrongly as it turns out), that it would only be minor surgery. It was only supposed to be labiaplasty, and I wasn't expecting, nor had I paid for, the full revision and clitoroplasty that my surgeon very generously did, out of the goodness of his heart!

But I became convinced that there would be a rail strike or a train crash, or that some idiot would pick this day of all days to make a bomb threat or scommit suicide by jumping in front of the train. So I went up to London a full 24 hours early. I rented an appartment for one night, right next door to the hospital, and a sat and waited!

The next morning I had only a few hundred yards to walk to the hospital. My Partner and adopted son both thought I had gone mad when I could have just asked either one of them to drive me up on the day

We all get the panics - I think it just shows how much it must mean to us to make sure we succeed!

Needless to say I paid for my paranoia on the way home in full! That train journey, on my own, without any pain killers, (I didn't have any first time around so figured I could do without again), lacking a doghnut, because I hadn't expected so complete a job to be done, was pure agony!

I am also one of the puzzled ones as to why that lady jumped ship! Three times?! I have quite a way to go for my surgery. I do have one next month but that's for a facial procedure. I'm just thinking it's my first step towards me

I love the writing style you use SarahR. I think that most girls should haul a laptop or anything (writing paper, chalkboard) to their surgeries to document their experiences. It gives me great hope that my day will come soon enough. I'm thinking in three to four years from now. I need to graduate first and make money or... win some kind of big cash prize! I could use a couple of things besides the SRS

A car would be nice. Lots of new clothes. Shoes. Heels. Stuff like that.

Anyhoo I'm babbling. Have a great rest of the weekend

Quote from: Valeriedances on April 04, 2010, 10:08:28 AM
I've found that I have developed a degree of paranoia and am more and more protective as I think about safety ...of something happening that will prevent the surgery.

A few weeks ago we got another snow-on-top-of-ice kind of storm.  I was driving carefully through town when a large pickup approached from the side street going way too fast.  My first thought was: "Don't hit me and make me miss my surgery!" 

He did stop in time, but having that as my first reaction made me realize how wound up I am about this.

- Kate

Quote from: K8 on April 04, 2010, 02:33:30 PM
A few weeks ago we got another snow-on-top-of-ice kind of storm.  I was driving carefully through town when a large pickup approached from the side street going way too fast.  My first thought was: "Don't hit me and make me miss my surgery!" 

He did stop in time, but having that as my first reaction made me realize how wound up I am about this.

- Kate

Everyone it seems get the paranoia.

For me, it was being detained at airport security because I had not flown since before 9/11 and I heard horror stories of people being pulled randomly from flights for extensive background checks.

I arrived four hours before my check in time just because of that.  I literally flew threw airport security and then had to spend the next three and a half hours staring at airport CNN.  By time I boarded I new every news story, when it came on, and could recite the text at the same speed and cadence as the announcer.

Once my butt hit the seat, I did worry a bit that my luggage might end up in San Bernardino while I was in Philadelphia, but I had all my paperwork in my hand bag and I would have worn the same outfit for days if necessary, and would have been willing to walk from the airport to New Hope on my knees if that was the case.  Once that airplane door closed, and the plane pulled away from the gate it was as if a boulder had been lifted from my shoulders. 

The paranoia is helpful in a way, because it makes us review over and over ever detail of our trip and try to plan for every eventuality.  And for everyone who has been through this, once the operation is over, the paranoia lifts and we get on with our lives.  It isn't compulsive so it's not anything that is too worry some.

-Sandy