Hi everyone, I'm Karla, a TS girl, and I am 21

I'm sitting here, a little bit nervous, scared even, yet very hopeful for what's to come

I've been around the forums for a while and I must say just reading all the stories, meeting all the tremendous people here, never failed to comfort me and lift my spirits even in my darkest moments. I feel a real sense of family here and I'm longing to be part of it and of each other's journeys.
My own TS journey is relatively at its beginnings, I'm just at the end of a vicious cycle of grief, conflict and isolation. And it was really taxing. I am not on HRT yet and so far I've been out only to a few people.
Now I feel somewhat worn out, but in a good way, my resolve is growing steadier and that light at the end of the tunnel is becoming clearer.
I still have ways to go, I don't want to (can't) do it alone.
A lot of change is going on, I've moved halfway across the world in the hopes of a chance to start over, to be me and build my life as it should be. Regrets are still there for the time lost -- coulda woulda

-- some days all the negative emotions crop up and beat my vulnerable psyche harder than I think I will able to recover from, anger, feeling targeted, worthless, looking for something to blame, doubt, big black imploding hole in my chest... whatever... *sigh*
I realize this introduction may have gone on for longer than it's supposed to so, yep, hey everyone!

Please do not hesitate to ask me about anything, at all, I'll try my best to answer, or just tell me what you think, I would absolutely love to hear from all of you!
Love, Karla