People keep tellin me I'm a girl I just wanna be a guy and I I'm a sick freak and it hurts so bad.
I feel so alone.
It's like I'll always be this way so I'll never be normal so people will always be like ewww.
People wanna beat me up and I don't know why.
My life was getting so much better now it's getting so much worse.
Why are people so cruel?
Why...
I'm so scared and so alone.
I don't know what to do.

-Jack

Telling you so doesn't make it so, honey.

And people want to "beat you up" either figuratively or literally most likely because you frighten them so much.  They never learned that it's possible to have a male mind in a female body so they think you're strange and wierd and want to get rid of the uncomfortable feelings that they get when they are confronted by the fact that their beliefs may not be correct.  Their cruelty is covering up their fear.

And you're absolutely not alone!  On the surface we may just be words on a screen but those words have real people behind them with real feelings that go out to you because we understand, oh so well, what it's like being the way we are.

This is a scary thing, being transsexual.  In many ways and not just for young people.  Older birds like me get scared too.  But it's not the end of the world.  Try to stay away from the people that dismiss your feelings and try to make some friends that accept you as you are.  Hard to do, I know, but not impossible.  But above all else remember we're here for you to unload on and share with and to support you because we understand and know what you're going through.

Hugs & Smiles,
helen

Jack,

You are not a sick freak and you are not alone!  I know what it feels like to be rejected and alone, but there are people out here who care about you.  I know that what you are going through probably feels like the end of the world, but if you just take it one day at a time, things will get better.  No matter what people say, be confident in who you are.  They don't live in your body so they cannot understand.  Take what they say with a grain of salt because it comes out of ignorance.

Hang in there!

Pam

BUt their wrong when they say I'm a girl...right?

Of course they are.  Because you were born in a body that society says belongs to a girl doesn't make you a girl any more than sitting in the garage makes you a car.

If you brain says boy...you must be boy!

Quote from: Jack on October 13, 2006, 10:02:50 PM
BUt their wrong when they say I'm a girl...right?

Yes, they are wrong, Jack.  You know better than anyone else who and what you are.  Try not to give too much importance to ignorant comments such as the ones you mentioned.  No one will ever know how you feel on the inside because they are not you, plain and simple.



tinkerbell

Amen to what Pam said.

See, the body is -- uhm -- sex-ized in the first trimester, but the brain is gender-ized in the final month before birth and the first month after birth.  For at least 97% of people body sex and brain gender match up.  For less than 3 percent, there's some mismatch. Out of those transgendered, less than 1% (some say 0.1%) actually are so strongly mismatched they KNOW something's wrong, or they figure it out later in life.

You are NOT crazy.

You are fairly rare, but that doesn't make you a FREAK.

Personally, I envy trans-guys.  They start taking T, and pretty soon they're accepted as male.  Trans-girls have it a little harder because the male puberty they had to undergo leaves their bodies, faces and voices scarred with masculinization, which can't easily be undone.

You'll see what I mean when you meet and hang out with other FtMs.  You'll feel right at home.

The problem is society is sick, and can't see that one-size-fits-all gender assignment doesn't always work.  Start working on your presentation.  That'll take you a long ways.  Get with a gender therapist.  Start working towards getting a letter to start T.  Keep your eye on the prize.  And every time they ma'am you smile, and mutter an expletive when you're out of earshot (that's what I do...)

You'll get there, dude!

Karen

Hang in there, Jack.

   You said your life was so much better, but now it's getting worse. If your life was better before, then you should know that it will be better again. Everyone has a dip and maybe things feel worse for a while, but it passes.

   Also, when you say people want to beat you up, do you mean for real? Because you should never feel threatened by other people. If you do feel threatened, please think about who you hang around with, or how you spend your time.

  Please take care of yourself.


Love,
Rebecca Fog

Quote from: Jack on October 13, 2006, 10:02:50 PM
BUt their wrong when they say I'm a girl...right?

That is entirely up to you.
Nobody can tell you who you are, but you. Be more confident in yourself.

hey bro dont let what ppl say get to you i know its hard but sticks and stones you know the  rest .
i know its easier said then done but i have no better advice im sorry to hear this and anytime you need some support you know where to find me
joshua shane:) a.k.a jaded

Normal is waaaaay overrated and is also very subjective (heck, I was even called normal once, LOL).

There is no such thing as fate as we all have power over where we will go, what we will do, and who we shall become.  Why give up that power to those who do not know you?

My advice is to make sure you know yourself and then just follow your heart while using your head.

"As a child, a child called me childish names
Now I'm a man, but I still feel the same... shame.
What's in a name?  It's me, baby!  That's where I exist.
So grab onto this!  I am beautiful because I think so.
Because I think.  And therefore I am, what I think I am."
  2Nu2, Zen'd Lullaby

Hugs,
LIT

When I started my therapy, I told my therapist, "I just want to be normal..."  He said, "You're normal now, and that's what's wrong.  What you want to become is natural!"

Karen

I know how ya feel dude. But no, you aren't a girl. You are what you feel, and that is a man. You can email me anytime, or add me on AIM if you please. I'm knew here so I am still figurin how to put my contact info on here, but I am always here to help.