Although the risks are huge for doing things the black market way, there comes a point where you get fed up, I've been thinking about this next step for so long. And everyday (although its probably in my head) I feel bigger, and bulkier, and hairier, and taller, etc.. I just want to start the process already and I feel like if I don't I'm gonna lose it!
So I guess the best I can do (for now) is try and research and make myself as safe as I can be..