I am considering to tell my math teacher all my secrets, and to keep it a secret, but because I want to talk to someone and because I am failing his class. I want him to know what I am going through, what I am facing daily, and the misery of my life.

I think he thinks I am a lazy student I guess, but I need this math credit, and I reached a point where studying doesn't even help me anymore. I want to tell him I have no friends, lonely, and work 40 hrs a week, and can't even stay up much longer to study for his class since I am too tired, and all the financial issues I am going through, and things I can't even tell you guys lol. I'll tell him how hard my life is, and it's really hard for the average student. I'll tell him till the first student comes in asking for math help.

I don't think he'll tell anyone what I'll tell him.

But I am worry that this will be too much to expose him too, but now I just want to tell him that it became too much for me.

I am crying that I am probably going to fail this class... but failing doesn't bother me anymore, I just want a friend so badly now. I am considering suicide because of this math class (I won't tell him that though since thats big stuff), and I know I need to reach someone even if its a teacher.

But should I??? I don't want him to tell anyone, and if he can it a secret I might make my first friend.

It's more than just a class now, it became the destroyer of my life. And I really want a friend....

Having not lived your life, or know your math teacher I cannot truthfully say whether you should tell him or not. I do however, fully understand your feelings. I ended up telling a few people only because I just couldn't handle keeping everything inside.

One thing is sure, if you really need to tell someone then do so, your feelings and secrets certainly aren't worth dying over whatever they are, but please take time and consider who you tell, someones support is great but, someones scorn is also terrible.

well to be honest , this situation happens to me every once in a while , when there's a certain someone that i wanna tell things to for whatever reason , especially that that i have a sort of weakness towards fatherly figures since i lost mine back when i was a kid .  but the thing is, i always , always regret it . usually they just don't care . and sometimes they turn out to be an A.H and then i really regret i told him
with that being said , if you really know the guy and really trust him tell him ,why not . just be careful
you have a lot of friends , tbh i consider myself one , i know you mean IRL , but i mean ,for me , IRL friends are something i usually avoid because i never get to be myself around them , which is very different here

as for the math , i just dropped out engineering college (and i was seriously thinking about taking my own life and even tried it not long ago but trust me it's not something you wanna do ) anyway , my major was communications and electronics , so eventhough i dropped out but i'm kinda good at math so if there's anything i can to help you through this class just let me know
good luck

It's high school, I need to pass, period (4 yrs of math required) . Well I wasn't going to tell him the transgender thing as the 1st thing because that really isn't on my mind most of the time, it's passing/failing high school, making my family accept me, and wishing for a friend.

I don't know the teacher that well, but I don't know anyone at all if I was going by that. But to be honest, I had more contact with the teacher than I did with any student  (which is none), since I did this project for him for points and I called him once. And he did ask me if everything alright with me, and I told him everything was.

But I don't know where to turn too, and I assume because he became  a teacher he actually cares about people. And I think if I really get into his heart he might pass me... I am not relying on that too much though but I gave it all I had, and I need this class to graduate and I don't want to do summer school at all since I need a holiday.

And I am going to tell him if I fail this test I am just going to do other teacher's homework since I did gave it my all. 

And what is there to lose? If I do tell him and it was the wrong decision, then I will accept that and forget about it all. But I'll make sure he doesn't tell a soul by asking him if he can keep a secret.

If I don't tell him anything I am going to fail the class, then its off to summer school.

I lost my mind this week because of this test, and I am seeing reality for what it is now.

I never told anyone anything about myself all my life... and now I just want too. But after crying 2 hrs, I feel like I should keep it to myself.

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he's also a basketball coach, not going by stereotypes... but he gets really angry at people

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Post Merge: May 19, 2010, 12:55:56 AM

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but the good thing for me i wrote 4 lyrics based on this class (i never force them they just came to me, and all of sudden since i never wrote lyrics but I want to use these lyrics when I leave to start music). I'll probably combine it all to make one epic song about the misery of life with hope at end.

i hope its a billboard charter

well then, just go for it , i hope it turns out well

and yeah , best music , lyrics or literature created is the one that comes when we feel very sad or very happy

this sucks.... or i am going crazy. bipolar

but now i am happy? for no apparent reason.. and i kind of lost my desire to tell him because i feel like i am going to fine afterall, so when i mope about my life i am not that sad, even though i was at the state of feeling like dying.

imma wait for that ugly intense depression, it'll be here in an hr.

i'm playing sad songs to be sad.

heh , actually i am bipolar , but the 'happy' thing sticks with me for days to two weeks , but if your really happy , why change it? you could always tell him another time , just enjoy being happy

I actually was going to tell him, but then I kept it all back, he was just too rude and angry with me because  I missed a few days of school.

But whatever, I think I did okay on the test.

You're in high school? You sure look a lot older then me. (That's not supposed to be insulting, you look good.)

But I agree with what's been said here, it's really hard to keep it all on the inside, and I feel I would have exploded if I hadn't told someone. However, I usually regret who I've told, so choose wisely.

But anyways, you work 40 hours a week and you're in high school? o.o Your parents didn't kick you out, did they? Then again, you said that you haven't told anyone so there must be another reason.

It sounds like a hard life, I wish I was there so I could give you some support...