I assume this belongs here!

I been talking to an sexual therapist soon for a 3 years now... and with her help I've got into a situation I don't think my outer-side so much anymore... My normal everyday life I am just me.
And now, I have my first meeting at trans-policlinic... I know, there's a 6 months talking-part waiting for me, and well... just to make sure, I'm totally ready to go through that, ofcourse! But still, it makes me frustrated to think I have to talk about those things again! When I been starting from the point I wanted to die and come to the point where I accept myself now as long as I have to and look forward to the day when I have papers carrying my chosen name...

And then, yes, I am nervous... Is it possible that I talk too much, or too less? What if I am so nervous that I ruin everything? Can those meetings ruin everything, when I feel it from my head to the toe: I'm a male. And I need male body. Kinda confused... Ugh, I can't think straight right now!