I try to be short and clear.
I'm in love. But too scared. Scared of losing. Scared of other people's opinions. Scared of everything. But still, in love...
After my ex died, I been so scared to talk to girls.. well, to be honest, she's the only one I wanted to talk to...
I wanna tell her how I feel and oh, how much I wish she'd feel the same... But is there any change... She's 7 years older than me! I'm probably just a stupid teenager for her...
She knows about me being FtM, going to transition... first, well, she didn't clearly react in any ways. But now later, she been showing interests... Especially in... bottom surgery! Why?
Is she interested in me, or does she just have some weird interest in this topic? What would you think in this situation? Cause in my case... it's confusing me!
And yea... one more thing making this harder... Most of time we meet at shop, where she works! I can't say anything by does she smile and look at me... she has to! But, I don't know if it's just me, or why I feel like atmosphere with her is different than with another workers there...
And is it her style to give change and touch customer hands by dying it, or is it just me? I'm working as same work now, and I don't do like that... Atleast not that I know I'd do?
My heart says, go for it... She accepted you as Facebook friend not knowing you for real! All we been talking was "hey, busy day? - yea a bit. - bye. -bye." and then started to talk online...
Does that mean anything?
Lots of questions... and one more, last question:
what would you guys do? How would you speak out? Can't just go and blurt it out!
