Well...As you all know I've been feeling a bit sad recently and have been having a hard time getting to a happy state of mind...

Today I had to get a haircut (I hate you "mom")....and I almost broke into tears. Then when I was driving home I realized that I wouldn't be able to even paint my nails until after July because I'll be with "family" until the beginning of August. It just feels like I'm taking one step forward towards transitioning and then two steps back. I can say for certain that if I can't get HRT approved I will die, either by lack of willing to live or by my own hand.

sometimes, young one, we have to do the two step to move forward.  You will soon be free to ne you.  Hang in there sister, hand in there.

 
You shouldn't even call her "mom" with quotation marks. She don't deserve it. Family is a pain... Hang on there... There is, somewhere a horizon to look forward to. Don't let the idiots get you down...