Okay, here's my situation (I have previous posts but I haven't really given you enough information about my situation.)
So, I think I've been depressed, I don't know, I hate every masculine aspect about me. I always insult my adams apple or my shoulders around my mother (however I also complain about my weight, I really just want to stay at 115lbs:P) My mother once asked me: Well, do you feel like you need to be a girl? Is that what it is?
And her question seemed quite reassuring, she seemed welcoming and calm about a positive response.
But sometimes I complain about how boring male clothing options are and I'll say something like: Boy clothes are so boring!
And my mother will say something like: As opposed to what?
That makes me a little worried about her response, like how she'll always ask me: Don't you want to grow up to be a tall handsome boy? *Imagine me internally pulling out my hair and foaming at the mouth as she asks me this*
What I'm trying to get at is, how do I tell her. I always ask her to take me to a therapist, and I was thinking hopefully they would help me figure out a way of telling her. Also, I thought of trying writing a letter and giving her some space and time.
And then there's the obstacle of my father. I have no idea what I'm going to do with that every-thing-he-doesn't-like-phobic man.
Thing is, I need both their support because I really want to start HRT as soon as possible.
Anyways, here's hoping you can give me some help.
Madison
