This is a copy of my blog telling everyone about my weekend last wekend. I went out on Saturday night and Sunday afternoon as Alice.
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Well last weekend was massive. So much has happened during the weekend I will have to explain.
Saturday morning dawned and it was time for a ride. I was looking forward to getting out havinh missed last weekend. The ride was good as I felt I still had that extra poweer when needed. I had so much fun dsecening in the Cotter - I went as fast as a could into the wind. The climb out was good - not to hard but just nice and relaxing. Noone on the ride wanted to go to coffe but I went there and found Murry to have a coffee with. I was a bit tired on the ride home and glad to have a relaxing afternoon.
Well Saturday night came and while ringing up Maddy to ensure Sunday lunch was on Maddy told me to come out to the cub. After a quick Dinner it was of to Maddy's place to get changed. I wore a black skirt, red top, full makeup and flat shoes. I was feeling a bit tired but eventually got changed (lot of proding needed from Maddy) in time to go out clubbing with Maddy, Ellisa, Tiffany and I. We started by going 'Toast' which is a goth night club. It was a bit quiet but there where many different people there. I took of my wig for a bit and Maddy reminded me that I needed to keep my wig on at lunch tomorrow. After a few quiet drinks in the corner we left for the cub night club.
We said good bye to Tiffany and Ellisa at the door and entered into Cub. We went in found a spot to sit and brought some drinks. After having a few we head to the dace floor for the first time. A lot happened that night - dancing, a few drinks and lots of chatting. We met a nice lesiban couple who we chatted and danced with for time. It was so nice to get the human contact that I often miss being out as Alan. As Alice I was getting lots of cuddles and good cenversation. Maddy invited the couple to the lunch on Sunday - I was very happy about that. I also met Charlotte (I remember her name as she put her number in my phone). We chatted and dance but in the end I did not know how to dance with her (sweet inocent Alice was out of her depth) and I did not want to pick up guys like she said. We also saw the gay guys from the ball and had a chat to them
and lots more intesting poeple like the doctor in well suspenders and short shorts. There where all sorts of people at the club and I have a great time. towards the end of the night I was getting a bit self consious and wishing I was not wearing a skirt. After dancing with Charlotte I was ready to go home. Maddy and I left at about 3am (so much for an early night) and she offered to let me stay at her place which I declined. I got home and to beg at about 3:30am which became 4:30 after daylight saving conversion.
After a bit of sleep and a bit of relaxing it was time to get ready for the lunch. Back on with the makeup, I had time to put on my long earings, Blue dress and heels . Of to Maddy's to pick her up - she was not quite ready so I had to wait a bit. We went to Tilly's for lunch where as expected we met Ellissa (the two girls from Cub had a bit to much good fun the night before). Well Ellissa was a good girl as she was in a skirt as we requested. Lunch was good- we had a good chat about the usual stuff and afterwards we went outside for some more wine. All at the same moment I started to get self consiuous (I wanted out of my skirt), I satrted to drink more (actually got a bit drunk) anmd noticed Ellissa and Maddy holding hand (now they where acting like a couple ). Gee I liked Ellissa and while I was not looking to become a couple it is people like hewr who I can talk to who I would love to get know better. I had reviled to both that I had not had a partner and hope that by me coming out I would be more relax with myself and hence attract the right person. It had happned the night before at the night club (i have never had so much contact with GGs) but I did not want to friends to become a coule in front of me. They where trying to confort me as I had had enough of my dress and ripping my heart out by being a couple. I got very said and with the extra wine- emotional. Well I showed my emotions (had a cry) in front of them. I eventually calm down, Maddy drove back to her place so I could sober up before going home. Ellisa saw me having a little cry and came to confort me (I lied to her by saying I had no feelings for her). We had a swim in the pool and eventually it was time for me to go home. I left with them going out to civic as a couple for dinner while I was going home to get some much needed sleep.
Monday was OK. I was still a little emotional from the night before and I could feel my saddness the whole day. I was worried that my depression has return as I was skaking a bit in the wrong way and could feel my emotions very high. I worked as best I could during the day(having a few naps) and eventualy it was time to see my friends again at swimming. I actually swam ok for some time but fadded during the last part of the swim as I do not have the usual strength. I enjoy the swim for the most part - back where I belong - but in a way my life has changed andI felt a bit distant from my friends. My life has move on this year and I am not to sure if I like these changes. I got out of the pool and to my car and had a small cry in my car. I finally composed myself for the drive home.
Monday night there was an interesting show on TV - Enough rope with Adrew Denten. On there was a transvesite (CD) named Sara. She said just about everything I wanted to tell dad so I rang him up to tell him to watch the show. We chatted for a bit (he had been back in hospital as a precausion) and once again he said he would support me in what ever I do . It was great to know that but while he missed the show I will point him to the transcript of the interview.
Alice
